🌙you are joking...right🌙

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(Helloo, so today we do have another sad chapter. Please forgive me. I was listening to these songs while writing this:

I miss you, I'm sorry by Gracie Abrams

Better off by Jeremy Zucker and chelsea Cutler

The beach by the neighborhood

^ sorry if you hate my music taste, music is my life though soo✌)

💫(Hinata POV)💫

I'm crying on train to Tokyo. I need kenma. My visions blurred and my eyes hurt. Why would he do this. Is he disgusted by me?

I don't get it...

The train stops and I walk to the doors. Once the doors open I see kenma on a bench. He looks up with actual emotion in his eyes. They're screaming "I'm worried". He runs up to me and pulls me into a tight hug. My head in his shoulder crying waterfalls.

He asks me in a stern voice

"What happened shouyou?"

-the day before that-

I remember that day clearly. It was a cloudy day. It had also been raining the whole day.

I had woken up in a cold bed, got ready, and made kageyama breakfast

The morning seemed quite usual

But when I got to the park, he wasn't there. Then when I got to the gym for morning practice, he wasn't there either. He wasn't there for the entire day.

Right when school was ending I get a text from kageyama stating

Kageyama: meet me at the park at 7 pm....I have something to tell you...

I immediately respond, thinking it was something good

Hinata: okay!!

I put my phone down and head home.
I practice chords for a song I've been practicing called "drive" by incubus.
Once it's 6:00, I start to head over there.

Once I get there I see kageyama leaning against a tree. He looks up to me with numb eyes

Now I'm worried

I walk up to him slowly. He starts

"Umm hey hinata.."

"Hey kageyama...what's up??"
I say concerned

"Umm...well hinata......"

"I'm breaking up with you"

"Haha you're so funny" I say a little worried but sure it's a joke

He looks at me with guilt in his eyes

He's not

"You are joking...right?"

"I'm sorry"

"What why, did I do something wrong!?" I say quietly screaming

"No....I just cant love you"

...

"Am I that unlovable"

He stares at me in shock

"If you didn't want to date me, then why did you kiss me on the cheek that day. I don't get it. Is it because I'm a so called "slut" or "whore". I don't get it!"
My voice cracks and I'm on the verge of tears

"H-hina-"

"no it's okay, I get it"

I get on my bike and pedal away, not looking away. Why me. It's not my fault I'm messed up.

I want to call him

I call and him and state

"Meet me in Tokyo, I'll be on a train."
I say in a stern serious voice, way different from my usual one

Kenma sounding shocked by my tone stutters

"W-why h-hinat-"

"Just meet me"

I hang up and head to the train.

(Back to kenma's house)

I just finished telling him what had happened. Kenma knows everything about me. Even about shi or my mom sister. He even knows that I play a black electric guitar and I sing.

He's gone through what I've gone through but not with a person named shi, but he luckily got saved by kuroo and has been dating him ever since.

Right now he looks like he's going to break someone's knee caps.

"Can I stay for the night..?" I ask not wanting to be sad and alone in a cold empty house

"Yes hinata, can you miss school?"

I nod

"Come on, I'll cheer you up with some animal crossing" he smiles his rare smile

"Yay"

I miss you already, but maybe I'm better off alone

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Don't worry I'm mad at myself too.
Also fun fact I play a black electric Ibanez guitar.
Also kenma is in fact best boy
You can't disagree!!

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(Update: this has been edited:)

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