Flo's Diary

Fri.June 27th 2014 (Part 2)

But first, I needed to tell Johnny.

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Dear Diary...........................

I walked from the doctors to school to meet Johnny. He hadn't come out yet. I sat on a wall outside school waiting for him. 10 minutes later, he appeared.

'Hey babe, how was the exam?'

'It was okay, a bit tricky, but I did my best.'

'That's all we can ask for' I kissed him and gave him a hug.

'Where's Matt?'

'Change of plan, we'll walk home. We need to talk about something.'

'Okay babe' he said. He reached for my hand and we started walking home.

'Johnny, I need to tell you something.' I said to him. He stopped.

'What's wrong?' he asked.

'Please don't get upset with me okay?' I said. 'After Matt and I dropped you off this morning, I threw up like mad, so Matt took me to the doctors and...'

'And what?' he said. I was crying in sadness.

'I'm pregnant' Johnny looked horrified.

'How far along are you?' he asked

'5-6 Weeks' I said. 'And I think my dad knows.' I said

'Shit' Johnny said. He let go of my hand and he walked off. This was the first time I've ever seen Johnny like this.

'It's not like I wanted this to happen, Johnny. I've got an appointment to have an abortion.' Johnny turned and looked at me.

'Without talking to me? I could have wanted this baby and you're going to take it away from me?'

'We're too young Johnny. If we were 18 I would have thought about it, but we've got our future to look forward to. You become a successful architect and me becoming a writer. We've worked hard to get where we are today. This baby will only weigh us down.'

'This baby could be our future too Flo. We could easily work around our baby'

'I'll be the one resenting you at the end of the day, I won't get to leave the house and you would still be out having a life. This baby can make or break us Johnny, and at the moment, it's breaking us. I don't want that. You won't want that. A life without you is an empty one.' Johnny came up to me and hugged me.

'Everything will be alright.' Johnny said. 'We can get advice from your dad; he is a doctor after all.' We walked back to my house to fine my dad and Matt waiting at home. Johnny waited outside. He couldn't face my dad.

'Where have you been?' My dad said

'I needed some time to think' I told my dad. 'Please don't blame Johnny for this. It's my fault too you know. If anything it's my fault.'

'I'm not angry, Flo. Just disappointed.' My dad said. 'You have your future in front of you and you repeating the past. This happened with me and Eva. She ended up leaving. I don't want that future for you.'

'I don't even want this baby, Johnny does though. I can tell. He didn't actually say but I could tell in his voice that he did.

'I'd like to speak to Johnny' I walked off to go and get him. He walked in with me, holding my hand tightly.

'Johnny, have you thought of the pros and cons about being a teen dad. I should know, I was one.'

'No sir' Johnny said.

'If Flo does decide to keep the baby and you stand by her, it would mean that you both have to halt your futures and look after this baby for at least 3 years. All your free time. Gone. All your money. Spent on the baby.'

'I know that Flo doesn't want this baby, but I do. But if Flo decides to get rid of the baby, then I shall stand by her all the way. When the time is right, we shall do things the proper way. Get finically stable, then try and have a baby.'

'You are a smart boy Johnny. You would make a brilliant dad. But this is something that you and Flo will really need to talk about. But if you decide to keep the baby, then I will support you guys no matter what. I didn't have much support raising Flo with my parents. I made sure she got everything she wanted. I know you will stand by her Johnny, but I'm not sure if it's the right time to have a baby. Just think it over, okay bud?'

'Okay' Dad put his hand out for Johnny to shake, and he did.

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'Johnny.' I said. 'What are you thinking?' he was sat on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands. He sat there silently. 'Johnny?' he turned to face me.

'I don't know Flo. We'd be 18 when our baby would be born. I could take a gap year and go to college the year after.' I moved to sit closer to him. He leaned away. I could feel myself tearing up.

'I just don't want to think that I had this baby to keep you with me. I don't want you to regret this decision.' He got closer.

'Flo, I love you. I tell you every day. I want to be with you; only you. You're the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. Even if we start our family young, it gives us more time to bond with the baby, more time to be with you. This baby could make us stronger.' I was crying at this point.

'I just wanted to do everything the right way. Meet the one, get married, have a family. I've got 2/3. I still think we are still too young. Perhaps when we both finish college, when we hit 18, we try then?' Johnny wiped the tears from my eyes. He smiled at me.

'Okay. If that's what you want Flo. I'll stand by you all the way.' He kissed me.

'We better go tell dad what we plan on doing. So we can attend the booked appointment tomorrow.' He took me by the hand and we walked downstairs. We were greeted my dad and matt.

'We have come to a decision' I said, still holding onto Johnny's hand. My dad and Matt turned around. 'Now isn't the right time for us to have a baby. We have literally just left school. I'm going to the clinic tomorrow for my original appointment. Johnny and I have talked about it and we are going to start planning a family after we hit 18. We want to be young parents. But we have college to worry about at the minute. Maybe after next year, it might be considered. Johnny and I will be getting part time jobs so we can afford our baby. We want to do this right. Do we have your blessing Dad?' my dad stood silently. He looked like he was deeply concentrating.

'I think that is a good idea. 18 is a good age. I didn't struggle much after I hit 18 as I could get a part time job and still go to medical school. You have my blessing.' I turned to Johnny and gave him a big kiss.