So.. I realised this whole thing is actually mainly for one of you.
I see you. I saw you. I saw you with me. And now? Now I see you. I see you fading away.
Changing is nothing bad, right? I need to tell myself that it's okay. Lately, my heart hurts when I think of you. Sometimes I see photos of the old you and the old me. We were so close. It was true love. At least for me. Often I think, the love between friends is something that my friends didn't desire. You have a boyfriend now, don't you? The crush I had on you was always platonically. But did you love me back? I think you did. But you stopped.
We stopped needing each other and then we stopped seeing each other.
Meeting at a party with all the others isn't what we used to do. We used to be together, as friends. We used to be alone at times. Alone together. You know that I miss these times, I told you already. But you don't understand my feelings.
And even if, we couldn't bring it back. We changed too much.
I've experienced it before. I had another time like that. A friend that I thought was my best friend but then? Then I realised I wasn't her best friend.
It hurts every time. Did you ever go through a terrible break up? Breaking up with you is even worse. You are a part of me, after all. But the you who is a part of me is not who you are anymore. I will still love you. But I need to let go.
Because we changed. I changed. You changed. Are we still we? I think not.
