We were happy. I thought Xavier's gonna be the guy that I'm gonna be married to. The guy who will grow old with me, for short the guy I wanna settle with for the rest of my life.
But those were just dreams and fantasies. After two long years, we bro...
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Xavier.
"What are you doing here?" I asked, I heard him sighed.
"Just checking up on you, El." He said. God, I missed his voice. Yes, I heard him speak earlier but there's calmness in his voice right now.
"After eight long months, you suddenly decided to check up on me?" I sarcastically asked "Wow" I added.
"I'm sorry" That's all he said. I wanted to cry right now. The man I have loved for the first time in forever who by the way left me without any reason is here, saying sorry.
"Sorry will not heal the scars, Xav." I said.
"I know, but I just want to let you know that I regret leaving you. That I don't know what the fuck came up to me and did that" He explained.
"So you're saying that you wasted our 2 years relationship because you can't get your mind straight?" I bitterly chuckled.
"No, I was having this battle with my thoughts that I don't deserve you. That you should be with someone who's perfect." I could hear the sadness in his voice "I lost it. I thought if I left, you'd find someone who's rich, who could give you the things you deserve to have. You don't have to work and all, I took some drugs that day hoping it would run away- the thoughts."
"But it worsened. I started realizing, I can't be with you. You're way out of my league, El" He added, tears running down my cheeks. "I panicked, and packed up my bag and left you. I just realized what I have done when I got sobered up at Ray's house."
"I told him everything, he asked me if you're worth it. I said yes, he told me to go back to you. But then these thoughts came back, I thought it's better to stay like this." I could hear him sniff. Is he crying? My Xavier's crying.
"I would always go to our apartment every single day since I left. I would always check up on you without you knowing it."
"I-i didn't know what to do when the Nightstalker broke in to your apartment. I was panicking, I was shocked. I blamed myself, If I didn't left this would not happen to you." I turn around and stare at him. The moonlight from the window reflecting against his porcelain skin while he's staring at the ceiling.
The Xavier everyone knows isn't a crybaby, he's the sassiest guy in the group.
"When I saw you at the Ice Cream shop, I was so happy. Really" He chuckled, teary eyes. He looked at me then back at the ceiling. "Then I realized that you shouldn't be out there. The Nightstalker is still out."
"The reason I argue with Ray tho. To be honest, I was also jealous of him. Because I saw you and him having this bond, I wished we had."
"And then I saw you arrived at the camp, I was mad at them but not at you, my heart skipped a beat when I saw you. Then I felt that it's going to be my fault if something bad happens to you." He continued.
