Cries of the lost lambs

green eyed asshole ch.6

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Green eyed snake in the grass

Anton ||
September 1st 2019
Wednesday
Warning:
mentions of sexual assault (warped perspective of sexual assault and the relationship as a whole)

Anton's body aches as his wakes up in pain.
Glancing at himself in his full body mirror he sees the bruise on his chin and the many other bruises lukas leaves on the boy in the wake of his anger. He smiles in the mirror trying to not let this get to him. He only does it when he's angry if anton thought if he could just stop making him angry maybe this wouldn't happen. Anton bends down and groans in pain his backside sore from the feeling of lukas using no lube because he wanted anton to feel the pain he put lukas through, anton didn't understand how he hurts lukas in the slightest. Anton looks at his bottle of lube spilled on the floor in anger as he told lukas it would hurt without it. Anton smiles even though he gets angry like that he still loves him inside and out. He would just have to not make him as angry as last night and that was anton motivation for the day. He sprayed hot water onto the pool of lube and began wiping it away. Sighing he'd probably have to buy another bottle soon because of this. When he finished cleaning he stripped himself as he stepped into the shower turning on the hot water feeling all his muscles relaxing and tensing back up. He stepped out of the shower walking to mirror as he applies concealer to his visible bruises and picks out an outfit that would hide the ones lukas left elsewhere. He decided on a pale blue sweater with a mocha colored skirt. He was feeling pretty feminine today. He packed a pair of pants into his bag just in case lukas maybe wanted him to change. He sent a full body picture to lukas of his outfit with the caption. Anton-"How do i look babe?"
He immediately recieves a text back
Lukas-"Sorry bout last night and yes you look beautiful but dinner tonight even though you deserved it i feel bad for doing what i did?"
Anton smiles knowing lukas regretted last night
Anton-"Yeah i'll cook to make up for pissing u off last night, last night was my fault i shouldn't have been talking about u to anyone period❤"
He phone immediately dings as he bit his lip in anticipation
Lukas-"Yeah i'll be over round 7 after ur moms leave?"
Anton smiles happily feeling himself get a little too hot downstairs
Anton-"Yep my moms are going on a slight business trip together for a while so maybe you can stay with me till they get back 😈😣?"
Lukas-"Damn you put the devil emoji now i gotta show up😉😙 how long tho?"
Anton-"3 days alone 😈💀😌😏"
Lukas-"Hell yeah be straight over. when they leave?😖😏 "
Anton-"Three days from now😖😣😭"
Lukas-"you know what cancel dinner tonight something came up plus it'll be better if we don't see each other till they leave sex'll be better😖😙"
Anton-"Fine whatever you always want sex anyway like why can't we just cuddle for like once😒"
Lukas-"Your the one making me fucking act this way Anton if you didn't give me fucking attitude we could maybe fucking cuddle. If you would just stop blaming me and realize this shit is your fucking fault."
Anton sighs and turns off his phone he just wanted alone time that wasn't always about sex with lukas. He wanted to be a normal couple and fucking cuddle and watch movies but lukas always trying to get some. He hates the idea of lukas even looking at someone else sexually. Anton picks up the phone and taps the call button
"Look i'm sorry if i pissed you off again...i'm sorry it's my fault if you don't wanna see me i understand but when you do i'll even do that thing you like to make up for my attitude papi"
Anton could hear lukas chuckle softly
"you playin...you really gonna do that to apologize to me?"
Anton smiles
"Yeah it was my fault and i should make up for it so what better way than that? Plus i don't like you being mad at me so i will do it if you want me too"
Anton could practically hear the sound of happiness in lukas's voice when he mentioned doing the thing
"Okay i accept your apology but i need you to do something for me"
Anton rolls his eyes in annoyance
"Shouldn't letting you record us doing it be enough?"
"You act like i asked you to fucking die for me? We gonna be together forever anyways like i'm planning to marry you one day babe."
Anton sighs
"O-okay"
Anton hears lukas clear his throat
"Send me a little something to tide me over".
To anton it didn't even sound like a question more like a demand
"Okay yes i can do that i guess."
Lukas groans into the phone
"Yes what Anton?"
Anton could swear he heard moans on the phone but they sounded masculine more so than his boyfriend's moans but he dared not say anything about them. He just decided that he was being insecure it couldve been porn or something.
"y-Yes sir".
Anton bit his lip at the sound of lukas moaning.
Lukas growls into the phone almost animalistically "tell me you love me!"
Anton smiles feeling pleased lukas needs him to finish .
"I love you?"
"Say it like you fucking mean it!"
Anton giggles softly and screams a little louder
"I love you!"
At the same time anton says that he hears a male voice repeat him
"Are you fucking telling me your cheating while your on the goddamn phone with me!!!"
"It's not like that babe he doesn't mean anything thing to me. You know i love you but he didn't have enough money for his fix ."
Tears fall down anton's face
"Yeah sure so you let him suck your dick to get some. How is that any fucking better lukas"
"Look babe if you hadn't done what you did this wouldn't have happened."
Anton giggles bitterly
"So it's my fault, Everything is my fault huh?! Why can't you ever be responsible for something!"
Anton clicks the end call button as he cries his eyes out into his pillow feeling conflicted. Crying because it was his fault this happened but if it was his fault why was he the one hurting? Why was he feeling bad for that asshole? He whimpered as he sobbed into his pillow his phone dinging repeatedly as he buries himself under his covers in the early morning of the day.
He hears his door crack
"Are you okay hun?"
"is he okay babe? We heard screaming ?"
Anton sniffles and continues to cry
His moms walks in and lays in bed with him cuddling him as he cries.
"Heartbreak hurts mama, it hurts, it hurts that he would do that then fucking blame me for it."
His mother gloria is the first to speak as his other mom Meghan rubs his back
"Who is this boy? I'd like personally cut his dick off and feed it to him."
Anton sniffles louder and cries onto his other mama's shoulder
" i love him to the moon and back. I done something i shouldn't have either and we wouldn't be in this situation right now."
His moms cuddle and coo him until he closes his eyes and stops sniffling. Anton sits up hours later after having a long conversation with himself sitting up right in his bed he had somehow conviced himself that this entire ordeal was his fault and to stop it from happening again he should be better for his lover.
He scrolls through all the messages lukas left him
9:26 pm
Lukas-"why won't you answer? I Love you"
9:26 pm
Lukas- "I wouldn't have had to cheat if you'd do your fucking job as my you know"
9:27 pm
Lukas- if you don't fucking answer me i'm coming over and i'm not going easy on you!"
9:30 pm
Lukas-"come on babe i didn't break you that badly did i?"
9:35 pm
Lukas- Anton Fucking Lockett if you don't talk to me i'll hate you!"
9:35 pm
Lukas- "come on can i come over babe i'm hard af and I'm sorry"
9:36 pm
Lukas-"I swear I'm gonna fucking throw a brick threw your goddamn window you fucking faggot if you don't answer me!"
9:36 pm
Lukas- "can I come over I'd like to apologize?"
9:37 pm
Lukas-I's outside rn but ur moms are in there can I climb in yet?
9:37 pm
Lukas- "I'll wait outside in the cold ig"
9:39 pm
Lukas- "I'm freezing my fucking nuts off babe let me come up? I love u you know I'm sorrrrrrrry"
Anton lifts his window smiling like an idiot
"Come on up babe."