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i still need you

Anthony x Jaden
*angst, Mentions of drugs, Alcohol, death*
(edited)

7/15/2020
"Dear My Love, So I'm gone and I wanted to say that I will miss you. But it won't be long before you see me again. You couldn't do anything to stop me from doing what I did. I made my own choice. I love you and hope you love me but I made the choice. If I were to have told you,
would have tried to stop me. I know that you found my body lifeless on the floor with an alcohol bottle and some pills. I know I said I would quit but I'm sorry and hope you're not mad. Second, I just want to say thank you for everything you had done for me as much as I didn't say it I really do mean it. I wish I was there to celebrate our anniversary but I'm sorry. I was a selfish prick. You are my everything and I love you, Jaden Hossler". Best of love- Your baby boy Anthony

Jaden sat there and read the letter one last time before he put it in a box and buried it in his backyard.

Jaden threw on a black tux did his hair and put on some converse classy but casual. Walked out the door to his and he was off.

Anthony always had a drug and alcohol problem. He wanted to get better but he just kept turning back. Until he met Jaden, Jaden did everything in his willpower to help.

But it only worked for a short amount of time. Anthony had been thinking about it and eventually went through with it.

* Flash Back*
" Bubs I'm home," Jaden said excitedly to see his fiancé. He looked everywhere around the house but got worried when he couldn't find him. He walked around screaming Anthony's name but no response. He had been thinking the worst thing possible.

"Was he cheating on me"?The last place he looked was the worst. He opened the bathroom door and saw his once alive lover Anthony dead on the floor lifeless.

Jaden rushed over to check Anthony's pulse but there was none. " I still need you" Jaden yelled as he held Anthony's lifeless body. Jaden called the police to have Anthony dealt with while he was waiting he found a clump of letters put together on his desk.

They all had different dates on them so Jaden read the one with today's date 7/15/2020. Oh, he wished he didn't open it. As he finished the letter he was straight sobbing.

But he got it together somewhat and made the phone calls he never thought he would make. everyone was heartbroken but not as bad as Jaden. Jaden lost his best friend, Boyfriend, and fiancé.

He cried for weeks and weeks until he finally got it together. Anthony had left a letter for each week. There were about 16 letters enough until his birthday so Jaden always had something to think about.

*flashback over*

Jaden remembers as he drove in the car to the funeral place. It was an open casket so he could see his lover one last time. Now it wasn't gonna be forever until Jaden and Anthony meet again but there would be a little wait.

He pulled into the parking lot and walked to his sitting places. His seat was at the front. He got up and went to the casket. He placed a kiss on Anthony's forehead

" I still need you bubba" Jaden whispered as Anthony could hear him.

Anthony was just watching from up above. He was crying watching Jaden cry. He knew he was selfish for what he did but he did it. He knew he a Jaden would be together soon.

Jaden placed a purple flower on Anthony's chest and walked back to his seat next to Anthony's mom. He had turned to her and cried on her shoulder.

"Anthony was my Best friend, Boyfriend, Fiancé. He always had the best smile in the room and the biggest heart. God the way he talked it was like an angel so pure and bliss. I remember this one time ... It was our 4th date and we had gone to a lake and didn't plan on getting in the water. But we jumped in and swam around, He went under and I got scared cause he didn't come back up for a little. But when he did he came up, He came up underneath me and put me on his shoulders. He always knew how to cheer me up when I was sad or calm me down when I was angry. He always supported my music and was there at every studio session. I truly did love him. He could do anything he ever set his mind to...I miss you every day Bubba" Jaden said as he concluded the speech and went to sit down next to Anthony's mom and continued to cry as Anthony's dad gave a speech.

"My son was one of the greatest people and I'm glad that he had Jaden" Anthony's dad said starting his speech.

It was the end of the service. Jaden had left to go home to put Anthony's stuff in boxes so he could put it in the attic of their house that they bought with each other. Jaden got home jumped out of a suit and threw one of Anthony's hoodies and a pair of Anthony's sweat pants.

Jaden put the last bit of stuff in the box and closed it up. He teared up as he did it but pulled through.

"Anthony would have wanted this" Jaden said to himself as he put the stuff in the attic.

He went back to his room and laid in their once shared bed. It felt empty without Anthony taking up all the room. Jaden went into the bedside table and pulled out a blunt. Smoking it, Beginning a new chapter in his life

I still need you.

A/N
so this wasn't that sad but kind of.
N E ways.

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