Once upon a time, there was a girl living in her own dream.
She always wanted to be happy and to feel be loved.
Until one day, she met cedrick.
He made her happy as she wished.
He treasured her as a real diamond.
He loved her more than his own life.
"Happy anniversarry mahal ko, akalain mo yun? Umabot tayo ng isang taon. Dati pangarap ko lang, ngayon nagkatotoo na. I love you Dennise"
Even me didn't expect na magtatagal kami ng ganito katagal
He was just my biggest dream before at ngayon heto na sya sa harap ko at dahan dahan akong isinasayaw.
How romantic it is.
We are dancing inside the room with a yellowish little bulbs and a petals of roses on the floor.
We're like magnets pulling closer to each other.
We're like bestfriends who always have our sides
We're like lovebirds cuddling each other.
What a perfect relationship, isn't it?
We fall asleep and woke up with a glance of our faces.
We both happy seeing each other's lips in the morning with a genuine smile in it.
"Good morning mahal ko, pwede bang 'wag mo kong iiwan kahit anong mangyari?"
I smiled.
Then my mom entered the room with the guy who I think I had met before.
He is tall with a white clothes
I can't remember where and when I met him.
He looks so familiar.
"Kanina ka pa nakatitig sa doctor mo Dennise, may problema ka ba anak?"
"D-d-doctor ko?"
"Ano ka ba dennise, did you already forget me? We met one time last month. I'm your psychiatrist, your mom chose me to check your mental health at nandito ako ngayon para dalhin ka sa hospital para ma-maintain na yung improvement ng utak mo".
I was mad.
I became aggressive.
I shouted and cried.
I thrown the flower bases and lamps above the table.
"Hindi ako baliw!!!!"
My mom started crying
I wondered why they are like this to me.
I wondered why life became so unfair.
"Cedrick, please help me. Patunayan mo sa kanila na hindi ako baliw. Please, help me... I'm begging you. Diba sabi mo wag kitang iiwan? Ayaw kitang iwan dito cedrick, kaya pleaseeee tulungan moko".
My mom and doctor's faces filled with shock.
"Anak, tama naaaa. It's just the three of us inside. Anak, please, tama na. Maawa ka sa sarili mo. Wala ng cedrick, anak. Ikaw mismo ang pumatay sa kanya. Parte nalang sya ng halusinasyon mo!".
I cried and realized everything.
I became weak.
I fall asleep.
—
Cedrick is my ultimate crush when I was 16.
I never had a chance to confess my feelings.
I felt like my world was so small.
Both of us are actually victims.
He bullied me day by day.
He always punch me in the stomach every single day.
He feels satisfaction when he do that.
I'm always crying inside the room but no one even cares for me.
No one even asked if I'm okay.
I wanted someone's shoulder to cry on but no one wants to be my friend.
I attempt to suicide by taking one bottle of anti-deppressant pills.
But that was not succesful.
I became overdosed.
I halucinate.
I stab cedrick with a fork.
He died and I cried.
I didn't meant it.
I felt guilty.
I did not imprisoned because of the young age.
But it hunts me.
Until one day, I met him again lying in front of me.
We talked like a lovers
We kiss like a lovers
And we sleep like a lovers
And for me he is alive.
Then I realized, I really love cedrick.
Not the real cedrick, but my own version of cedrick.
