The pain I've been dealt (TodoBaku) (No longer on Hold)

Part 10: Feelings

Song: Falling by Trevor Daniel. I do not own it.
This is the last chapter Im going to be able to post for a couple of days. Hope y'all enjoy. Kinda angsty

Bakugo POV

It's been a week since that conversation in the hallway. I promised I would try to stop cutting. And I am, but it's hard. Sometimes I had a relapse, but I always stopped myself after one or two. Thinking about Todoroki and how he would feel, it helped. I didn't want him to see me weak, and I didn't want him to worry or feel bad.

The month had ended yesterday, meaning I could walk by myself. Todoroki and I were gonna hang out tonight too. But during the day, we were finally able to hang out with our other friends

"Bakubro!" Kirishima said loudly as I approached him after

"Hey Kirishima" I chuckled

"It's nice you can walk by yourself, I've missed walking with you" he said

"Oh, don't get all sappy with me dude" I said teasingly.

"Yeah, yeah" he said.

"Hey, the love of your life is walking over here" he whispered nudging me in the arm

"Shut up" I whispered back as Todoroki walked up to us.

"Hey Bakugo, I got a question..." he said scratching the back of his neck

What could he possibly have to ask me? I snuck a quick glance at Kirishima. He had a smirk, I knew what he was thinking was going to happen. I roll my eyes, there's no way that's happening. I look back to Todoroki.

"Yes, half n' half?" I say

"I know we were supposed to hang out again today, but Midoriya, Iida, Uraraka and I wanted to do something together tonight" he said. "Would you mind if I took a rain check?" He asked

I looked over at Deku, he was glaring at me. Almost as if he was trying to intimidate me. Like hell it was going to work. Not that it needed to, I wasn't going to say no. I cringed before turning back to the boy I front of me

"Of course not you idiot," I said "They're you friends too, and because you've had to help me walk the past month, you haven't been able to hang out with them" I explained. "We can hang out some other time." I finished

"Thanks for understanding" he said smiling, before walking back to his 'friend'.

"I know you're not really ok with it Bakugo" Kirishima spoke up. "Todoroki just ditched you to hang out with Midoriya." He said

"What do you mean?" I said "it's not like I care that he's hanging out with his friends, it's his life"

"Yes, but you wish you were more part of it than Midoriya"

"Look, I don't know what you're talking about, can we just head to lunch please?" I stopped the conversation before it got out of hand.

Kirishima wasn't all that far from the truth. I wish I was more a part of Todoroki's life. But it's his life, and he wants to hang out with his friends tonight, I can't do anything about it.

Kirishima and I headed out of the class room and to lunch. We set at our usual table, and just ate. But Kirishima just wouldn't drop the subject of earlier so easily.

"You know, I really thought he was gonna ask you out" Kirishima said picking at his food.

I rolled my eyes.

"As if" I said "Just shush".

"I mean it's obvious by the way he looks at you, he doesn't just consider you a friend" he said

"Shut up dude!" I screamed as blush spread across my face. I pushed his shoulder with my hand, "it's not like he likes me or something" I said normally.

Todoroki's POV

Midoriya, Iida, Uraraka, and I sat at our usual lunch table. Midoriya has suggested we all hang out tonight, since we hadn't been able to lately. But, I had plans to hang out with Bakugo tonight. I had to cancel my plans with him in order to hang out with my friends. I felt bad, but Bakugo seemed to understand. We'd been hanging out quite a lot. That lead me to find out he cuts, and it's been a week since he promised he would try to stop. I trusted him, but was still worried that he would start again.

I was thinking about Bakugo and the day I found his blade, when I heard a loud noise coming from his table. He was red, and seemingly mad at Kirishima. He pushed the red- heads shoulder before saying something else. I couldn't hear what it was.

I furrowed my eyebrows, what had Kirishima said? Kirishima was smiling and laughing. While Bakugo scoffed, crossed him arms, and slumped back in his chair. They had an amazing relationship, they really understood each other. They could tease and make fun of each other, but it was always ok.

"Looks like someone's jealous of Kirishima and Bakugo" Uraraka's voice snapped me out of my thoughts.

"What?!" I asked as my head turned to look at her

"Oh don't pretend you weren't staring at Bakugo earlier, and now you're staring at him and Kirishima. It's obvious you like Bakugo and you're jealous of his relationship with Kirishima" she said

"No, what are you talking about? You know what, just shush" I said to her.

I didn't like Bakugo, did I? No way, we're just friends. Suddenly, Midoriya stands up and storms out of the cafeteria.

"What happened?" I asked

"I don't know, but I'll go after him" Uraraka said standing up.

"What have you guys done?" Iida asked, shaking his head.

Eventually the two came back in, and sat down again. They didn't say anything, just continued eating their food. I was confused, but didn't say anything.

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I'll try to write more, but it's unlikely. See you guys later though. Hope you're enjoying the story so far. See you later!