The heart wants what it wants (editing so please comment if any errors)

13.The Crying Game

"Where's harry?" Was the only thing that escaped liam came up to me "come with me I will tell you" he grabbed my hand I felt millions of things he was scaring me we sat down in the living room he sat infront of me

"liam what is it its killing me I haven't heard from him in a week speak please im begging you.." My voice cracked his eyes became watery and softer he let out a sigh and closed his eyes " Zayn left he went to go get married with perrie" I got up everything around me started moving I lost balence that's all I remember

I awoke in a room the guys had their backs to me watching tv I began crying thinking I was in a dream my sobs were heard because they all turned and came to me they all hugged me but it didn't help they backed away

" I didn't think zayn out of all people would do this.. to me he promised... What does he find in her that i don't have?" I took a pillow and shoved it in my face thank god I was wearing no make up.

Liam came his hand was behind my back and I heard harry speak " it is management they see the girls aren't becoming popular they are loosing fans so they have to get married" I shook my head " fuck the management" I cleaned my tears

"love you need to eat want me to get you food?" I began thinking I haven't eaten and my stomach was making noises before I said anything louis was out the door

"Why didn't he tell me?" I said a bit relaxed then niall began talking "because zayn has this thing where he doesn't know how to be straight up with the person he most cares about and he thought you and Justin would get back together so he went on with the marriage thing he will be back tomorrow morning" I stood quiet

"oh but I don't love Justin anymore im done completly but I guess I understand" we continued talking till louis came back with pancakes, bacon, eggs sophia cooked pretty well I ate up then had to leave.

I said goodbye too all but they insisted I stay but I wanted to be alone I called up Priscilla and told her everything and then talked about Aiden and how pregnancy is going I can't lie but I want a baby on my own im going to visit her soon we talked for 2 hours then she had to go to bed so i stood up it was 3 am I brought Nicki Minaj album the pinkprint and began listening to it the song that fit me at the moment was "The Crying Game" I began singing along and crying as well why was I so stupid

An hour later I heard a knock at the door I opened up the door it was zayn I looked at him the tears didn't end at all my heart began hurting

" zayn go home" he was crying as well " no I want to be with you" I looked down " I could've given you everything but you wanted her " I shook my head " Selena I've always wanted you and I messed it up cause I thought regardless you would've gotten back with Justin and I wasn't thinking"

I looked at him confused " zayn im done with him all I want is love and to be loved and I thought you were the guy to do that but clearly I was wrong so just leave"

I was about to close the door when his foot stopped the door from closing the door opened he grabbed my face " you sure you want this" and before I said anything his lips were on mine our lips were in sync

what this boy does to me he stopped and looked at me " goodbye selena" he closed the door gently and my back against the door I began crying and this was the start of the crying game where you loose you're soul I never felt this not even with Justin and im not sure why..

Hey guys I been doing a lot sorry