The heart wants what it wants (editing so please comment if any errors)

14. I lied(New Years Eve)

-New years eve-

Few weeks have passed I haven't seen anyone I know nothing about Zayn either I flew out to Texas for 2 weeks now i retuned back I have a flat not too far from Liam's I which he invited me to a party tonight which means zayn and Perrie the newly weds will be there im tired of the tabloid like wtf 2015 better be good

I called my make up artist and started to get ready I wore a blue dress with black lace my hair straight then I drove to Liam's I must admit I look hot

I put on some lipstick and got out and started making my way I rung the door bell you can hear a lot of people inside to my surprise zayn opened the door "hello zayn" he brought me into a hug his warmth his smell I missed it so much then I let go " you can go to the living room everyone is there" he said eyeing me his eyes were looking into mine before I turned he spoke again

"By the way you look gorgeous tonight" I nodded " thank you" I began walking he was behind me I felt his eyes watching me analyzing me I walked and saw everyone they did a group hug " OMG we missed you sel" everyone said

I was struggling to breathe it smelled like Macy's with all their perfume and cologne "guys can't... Breathe" they let go of me I turned and saw Perrie just standing there not helping of course I began helping

Zayn POV
Seeing her after weeks she looked like a goddess she began helping sophia and Eleanor cook perrie was on my lap while niall had to take a picture of us looking "happy" I couldn't even focus on him taking the picture I kept staring at selena the way she moved and her smile I missed that I missed everything then out of nowhere perrie put her lips on mine and I pulled away and selena just stared and continued cooking fuck he snapped the picture and she posted it and within minutes it was trending

Perrie knew what selena meant to me and she did that to get under her skin I brought her too the hallway because she had to leave jesy was having a party and I didn't want her around No words were said and she walked out I let out a sigh of relief then I walked passed the kitchen and out to the back I needed the silence and air

I heard the door open and I turned to see liam "what's up zayn?" He now stood next to me "nothing just needed air you know?" He chuckled " or trying to get away from selena?" I looked at him " maybe I missed her so much and I saw her a few weeks ago I broke her cause I wasn't honest I kept that secret from her when I should've told her how I felt she said she didn't need me" tears were forming and I took Liam's drink and starting drinking it like if it were water "chill out dude" he said " no I want her" " then talk to her" he patted my back and walked toward the back doors and I heard selena singing I walked in and she was they were playing karaoke

Even though I said I didn't love you I lied I lied
Even though I said I didn't need you I lied I lied
To keep you from breaking my heart, ooh
To keep you from breaking my heart, ooh
Even though I said don't touch me I lied, I lied
I can't fall for you, can't give my all to you
Can't let you think that Imma let the game stall for you
Gotta protect me you gotta sweat me
You said you thought you was ready and I said let's see
But I ain't mean that, I need some fucking proof
Cause what happens if I fall in love then you cut me loose
You just a heart breaker won't let you break mine
Cause I'll be smashing windows and cutting them break lines

I lied
Cause who knew that if I just let myself go with you
Who knows, who knows, so I lied
To keep you from breaking my heart, ooh
To keep you from breaking my heart, ooh

Even though I said fuck you, I lied, I lied
I thought eventually you would let me go
That was my insecurities and my ego
Missed my jump shot missed my free throw
Miss the way we kiss, miss the D yo
Man it was good while it lasted
That shit wasn't real it was magic
If it was a record it would have been classic
But fuck you though, orgasmic

This is what I gotta do to keep me from falling
Stalling the truth, who knew what you'd
Do If I let you in
My mama ain't raised no fool
I am not your usual typical type
Who would protect me if I never hide?
Falling so fast I am afraid of you

So I lied, I lied, I lied
To keep you from breaking my heart, ooh
To keep you from breaking my heart, ooh
I lied, ooh baby, oooh
Cause what if I let myself go with you

She finished and she had tears forming so did I I knew this song was for me "okay everyone time to eat we have 3 hours to go" she said we all got up but she grabbed my hand I looked at her she was perfect " can we talk?" I nodded and we went to Liam's office

Selena POV

I had to tell him I was falling in love with him maybe I'll wait we walked into the office and in one swift movement he turned me there was no space between us his eyes looking into mine once again I felt protected something I never felt with Justin

"Selena please kiss me I miss you're lips seeing you and not being able to hold you and feel you're warmth is hurting me physically I love you I know it's too early but I do you're something I always wanted and needed I miss you baby you mean the world to me with you not answering me I was going crazy"

I stood shocked he actually said he loved me I stared at him "baby speak to me" I kissed him passionately our breathing increasing I pulled away " I love you too zayn but you're married to her I can't sleep at night thinking that you go home to her God knows what has happened"

I looked down the tears fell he lifted my chin up his soft hands " baby we have never fucked we never will she knows what you mean to me correction everyone outside knows you killed me when you began ignoring me I need you plus this contract is done with im 3 months but mean time I'll be with you perrie doesn't care about us she's in love with someone else" I nodded " okay I believe you" he kissed me " I love you selena" " I love you too zaynie" he smiled " now let's go before people think we are doing the nasty and let's go eat" "okay" we walked out hand in hand everyone was eating

"Took you guys long enough you both look lovely" said niall I blushed at his remark

-5 minutes to 12-
"So we got everything right sophia?" I asked " yes we do can you come to the bathroom real quick?" "Sure" eleanor followed we went inside " so you both here because I got something important to say and we have 4 minutes I wanted to say I am pregnant" I squealed "yay I get to be a godmother" said Eleanor " awe congrats when are you telling liam?" She smiled " at 12" we hugged then we heard a knock guys 60 seconds we walked out zayn held my hand
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Happy new year I turned to zayn and kissed him everyone around us disappeared I pulled away " I love you" " I love you more" I blushed I went around hugging everyone then liam started jumping we all looked at him " what's wrong lad?" Niall asked "SOPHIA IS PREGNANT IM HAVING A BABY" he had tears of joy and we group hugged them and then toasted to them.