To The Man I Love (LF Series #1)

Kabanata 25 | Bouquet

"Kuya, I trained him for weeks and he is ready to replace me." I told my Kuya about my secretary. Naging progressive kasi si Gary during training. I announced my resignation last 2 weeks. Pagkatapos ng narinig ko tungkol kay Sebastian, hindi na kami ulit nag-usap. He tried to call me for weeks but I did not answer. No one knows what happened between us. Even I, I don't know kung ano na lang kami ngayon. Maybe we're both free now. I let him go the time I heard about his engagement. I confirmed it with the articles I read the next day that time.

"Gary is the best fitted for my job." I remind my Kuya again.

"Where are you going after you resign?" He asked me. "I'm going home." I said and smiled.

Home. I am now home. Sa loob ng limang taon, naging tahanan ko rin ito. Without my memories that time, I was happy here. And I think I'll be happy again.

I placed my luggage at my front to open the door. Parehong-pareho pa rin ang ayos nang iwan namin. I never said to my family that I'm going back here. All they know is that I'm outside the country - exploring. But I will settle down here for now.

Summer ngayon dito kaya napakalakas ng sinag ng araw. Yesterday, I went to the nearest beach para magpa-tan. I closed all my social media accounts and changed my number. May contacts ako ng mga kaibigan at pamilya but they don't know mine. If I'd call, doon nila malalaman ang bagong numero. Until now, I don't call.

I am alone in this house. I decorated it with my own preference. I made videos of me para matanggal ang boredness ko. I sometimes film what I cook or when I'm cleaning. I meditate and workout everyday. I planted plants dahil may kalakihan din ang garden dito.

I started collecting vinyl records dahil may vinyl player na naka-stock doon. Every night, nagpapatugtog ako while sipping wine. Then, I'd sleep.

Nag-apply ako bilang cashier sa flower shop. It's part of my plan to apply jobs that are hideous o kaya ang hindi akakalain ng ibang tao na gagawin ko. It's simple and quiet. I love it.

"You surely attract people." My employer once said. "I know, it's because I'm exquisite." I said cutely to the old woman. "Well, you really are, Jam." We just laughed.

"Jean, I'm going to take a leave tomorrow. I have an important occassion." Her wrinkled face looked me curiously. "Is it personal?" I nodded at her. "Okay, then. You can take it. My grandson will be meeting me tomorrow. He can fill your place. He's the same age as you but a jerk. He is also half-filipino!" She said excitedly.

"I would like to meet your grandson, Jean. Next time." Inayos ko na ang mga bulaklak na nakalagay sa front ng store para magsara na.

"Jam, take your time tomorrow. I want to punish my grandson for not visiting me for about a decade."

"Where is he coming from?"

"From the Philippines. He grew up there. But his father disown him but he doesn't know that I still contact him. It's my grandson for goodness sake!"

"Ohhh. Make the most of it, Jean. You really miss him. I gotta go." Nang makuha na ang bag, sinarado na namin ang store at umuwi na. Pero bago ako umuwi, pumunta ako sa vinyl store. Bumili ako ng bagong records. I saw The Bleachers kaya kinuha ko ang isang record nila na gusto ko. Pati iyong kay Taylor Swift na debut album niya. Sa wakas, makukumpleto na!

Pinatunog ko ang kay Taylor Swift and I started writing for my blog. I started writing when I started filming myself. I post blogs about detoxing and meditating. I share about what I do everyday. Naging journal ko ito but people like it. I have at least 500+ audience every day.

Minsan kapag hindi ko namamalayan, I search his name. Kapag nangyayari iyon, may mga article akong makikita about sa engagement niya at plano sa pagpapakasal. Bago ko pa man mabasa, sinasara ko na kaagad at dinidelete ang history.