While In My Emo Corner...

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I've fallen too deep. To deep for anyone to understand anymore. I myself don't even understand it. I lost what I thought was going to be the love of my life. Although he still talks to me and were "friends" its not the same. It never is the same. How can I forget someone who I've fallen deeply in love with?

I try everyday to just forget. But it was all too real. Those times although short were longer in my memories. Going through many problems of my own. And now I bring my love life which was just based on what I read or watched, although I knew my life was never a love story to begin with. It still hurts to see that he is just cruising around and he doesn't know how much I still love him. Some say it's all for the best. All I can do is lie to everyone's faces when they ask if I'm okay. It pains me to just sit there and give advice to help him with his own problems when I can't even fix my own. But what else can I do? Its my own fault I cant forget him. And try every day and night.

I used to be one of those girls who thought dating and finding true love was only in the dreams of those other girly girls.

I never was into all that fashion and stuff, sure I wore makeup from time to time and wore clothing that was decent. But never was I nor will I ever be a girly girl. Even through all that and training myself to not love another person the way I did before this heartbreak.

I cant trust anyone. I only end up loosing them in the end. So I thought, why not just isolate myself. Its not like I haven't done it in the past. Only this time it might just be for good.

Dedicated to Anonymous