Divorce - a start over [Sangini]

5. Regrets

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While sitting in her room all alone Ragini was thinking of the day's event. Today its been one and a half month she left HIM, her Sanskar and being Sunday morning she has all day to herself. Its only 5 am and a flashback of her past woke her up. She don't want to disturb Ananya so to think about her life she decided to spend her time in balcony watching the empty road hardly some persons are awoke at this time. Everything is going fine yet nothing seemed alright. His words are still piercing her heart and mind, when at the time she needed him, he was drifting apart, his stone heart started to break her heart making her Regret her decision.

"Your problem is that your heart is too big. It leaves you vulnerable and makes you weak" Sanskar spoke with such certainty that it bought tears in her eyes, because it was the truth. She was vulnerable and delicate. She was weak and let her guard down too much.

"You put your heart on your sleeve. You are oblivious to evil and peoples capabilities because you cannot imagine a person like that, you are blinded by your good nature, but I can never forget the loss because of you" Sanskar continued to pierce her heart and make it bleed by his words. In his rage he forget what actually is he speaking.

"What about yours?" Ragini asked hesitatingly trying to keep the shake out of her voice. He looked at her with confusion for a second and so she continued "What about your heart?" She questioned.

He looked at her with dark eyes. His stare is like stone. "I haven't got one"

Suddenly the breaking of vase brought her back to present. Finally he fall in love and got a heart because it was always a arrange marriage and he never confessed his love to her though everyone would said that he loves her and she like a fool believed them though always there was a nagging feeling in her heart which she pretends to ignore. She regrets that once she would have heard the voice of her heart than she would have all the answers and her heartbreak wouldn't be so painful. Though she started new chapter of her life still she can't bring herself to her old self. Then how can be she faithful to herself and will able to find HERSELF.

"When your love is real, its hard to leave someone....even after they've proven to you over and over again, that they don't deserve your love"

That's what Ananya told Ragini as she entered their room.

Ananya knew that Ragini will never share her grief with anyone, its only one and half a month they knew each other but it seems that they're connected from long time. She can read her easily and the sadness in her eyes. That's why her words made Ragini froze on her steps. The tears she is controlling hard to stop finally tickled down her face and Ananya took her in her enbrace stroking her hair, may be that would be able to make her feel light. After crying for an hour in her embrace , Ragini fell asleep so tired of pretending strong.

When heavy breathing and snoring of Ragini hit Ananya's ear she sighed in relief and made her rest on the bed and kept stroking her hair making her tensed brow relaxed in her sleep too. Ananya is thankful to God that atleast she is in her life because she knew her struggle well and because of that every night she made Ragini engaged in some talks or activities which divert her completely from her ex-husband Sanskar.

And she felt tired and thus sleep hit her, though she cant control her dreams but yet she try to put her in her embrace making her believe that she is not alone in her struggle. Ragini is like elder sister to her which she want from childhood. Her mother she remembered clearly shared the same fate like Ragini and she died a month later by suicide never thinking of her daughter and she wrote in the note that she can't cope up with her heartbreak.

She don't want to lose Ragini too soon just like her mom. She began to love her dearly and always want to protect and shield her and her innocence from the cruel world. She knew its impossible but she will try her best. She don't want to Regret later that she can't do anything to save her sister.