Divorce - a start over [Sangini]

6. Realisation

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Sanskar's POV
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Tomorrow is my engagement with my love Manisha. I donno when I fall for her but yeah its love.

Its 8 PM now and my work is finished because tomorrow am taking half day for the ceremony. Finally I got the foreign deal with Mr Ian Cullen and am so happy that my company is gonna expand in international level.

And yeah today finally am gonna meet Ragini after two months of our separation. Yeah I have to take divorce papers so that tomorrow I can give to my lawyer and then our divorce can proceed. But donno always why I feel a pang in my heart whenever I listen or utter the word 'DIVORCE'

I took my keys and headed towards parking lot. I am feeling excited and nervous about meeting Ragini again, but why this feeling? I never felt so in our two years of marriage, or I felt a kind of it everyday because I always felt at peace returning home in her embrace, is it too late?

But why late, I don't love her and without it how can we be happy in a relationship? Its actually a habit that's why am thinking so and eventually we became best friends too.

Shaking all the thoughts in my mind I started driving towards our appartment sorry its now Ragini's appartment. My heart is beating fast and erratically as if I am running since a day. What's this?? Uff so confusing...

Right now I have to focus and think about my engagement tomorrow but why am I not happy? Please God, please help me out am going mad.

May be because of lack of sleep am thinking nonsense. Finally am infront of her appartment. While thinking so much nonsense I didn't realise when I reached here. Anyways I will just take divorce papers and bid her bye but my hands are sweating, as if am going for interview or most important exam of my Life.

I finally rang the bell and waited for her to answer finally am gonna see her after so long but no one answered. I rang it continuously and bang the door again and again but still none answered. A panic ran through my blood, and all the negative thoughts began to marathon in my mind.

I quickly ran towards lift and pressed the button continuously but its taking lot of time, what if something happened to her or she did something to her, no no she is strong enough she can't do anything like her. Looking for another option I finally used staircase to go down forgetting that I can use my mobile but I was feeling that my life is sucked out off my body. I ignored all the people staring of the people around me, to them am looking like madman but what will you do when you are going to lose your life any moment? Will you care about the world or people around you? No, same thing happened to me too.

Reaching the receptionist I asked for the key of the appartment named under Mr Sanskar Maheshwari. The manager too came running to me and handed me the key calming me down and giving me shock of my life.

"Sir, Ragini mam handed us the key two months ago, saying that whenever you come I should give to you as she is leaving it forever, we tried to contact you but your number is out of reach" the manager explained me and I felt like the ground is slipping beneath me. She left the appartment, she left me forever, why? But she has the right to move on, but its paining in my heart? Do I have one, yeah I have that's why am in love with Manisha but why is it sounding bitter now in my mouth?