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nine// Paparazzi

*Gabby*

Sobrang lakas ng heartbeat ko… akala ko kung anon a yung sasabihin ni dad. Thank god it was nothing! Mag aalasyete na, wala na yung mga bisita ko, except for vince, he was still there… but he wasn’t talking to me…  

Sigh… he must have seen it too… me kissing kuya Jeff…

“So…”

“Gabbs…” uhh spell awkward… A-K-O… at isang malaking AKO.

“Uhm ano..”

“are you going tell me how was your first  kiss with the first guy you ever loved… is it passionate… torrid? Hard? Ano?” Gusto ko syang sampalin dahil sa mga sinasabi nya, but I understand him… he’s hurt…

“Vince… I’m—“

“Don’t be sorry… it’s not your fault I love you….” Nakaramdam ako ng biglang pagkahilo… sht. Not now.

“Vince naman” naramdaman kong unti unti akong papaatras… hangang sa maramdaman ko nalang yung dingding sa likod ko, ipinatong nya yung kamay nya sa balikat ko at yung isa naman nakatukod sa may dingding sa likuran ko… unti unti kong naramdamang mas lumalakas yung sakit ng ulo ko…

“It’s so unfair… I loved you first… it’s so unfair that so much it hurts… but I’m in love with you gabrielle… and that’s what’s important to me…” he looked directly into my eyes and claimed my lips… nalasahan ko yung luhang bumabagsan sa mata nya sa labi habang hinahalikan nya ko…

Despite of the terrible pain im in, I still took the courage to kiss him back… I’ve been so selfish… he deserves this one last kiss…

“I love you gabrielle… and I’m sorry” is it because of my headache or sadyang may mga flash lang akong nakikita, he was still kissing me, his arms were wrapped around me perfectly… that made me want to kiss him more…

What the heck… hindi ito tama… but I cant stop kissing him… what’s with me…

Naramdaman kong unti unti na kaming naglalakad papunta sa guest room, he was still kissing me hangang sa matapilok ako sa may kama, he stopped for a moment but then continued… that was my chance. I should have—sht. Ang sakit ng ulo ko!

“Hmm” he was kissing the pain away as he reached for the zipper in my jacket at binuksan ito ng kaunti at bumaba ng isang lebel yung mga halik nya sa leeg ko

“V-vince…”

“I’m sorry gabrielle… this is the only way…” his kisses went back to my lips this time with a more passionate one. Only way? Ano bang ibig nyang sabihin—sht. He’s not planning to—sht!

How could he do this to me?

*Paaak!* nakarinig nalang ako ng malakas na suntok… they’re fighting… I know it’s kuya jeff, I can smell him from where I am…

Hindi ko magawang maidilat yung mga mata ko… I just feel so… weak.

*Jeff*

Pagkalabas ko ng kwarto kung saan kami nagusap ni tito rick nakita ko nanaman yung paparazzi nay un. Sht lang ano nanaman bang problema nito? What the hell is he doing here?! Pano sya nakapasok?

I quickly grabbed the cam away from him at biglaan nalang syang kumaripas ng takbo. Tinignan ko kung ano yung laman ng camera nya’t pusang galang yan! Asan na yung vince nay un!

“tss… so he want’s to get even huh?" Tumakbo ako papunta sa kwarto kung nasaan sila ni gabrielle. damnit! 

di ko na napigilan ang sarili ko't isinuntok ko na yung kamao ko sa mukha nya, that douche deserved it! hindi nya ba makita kung gaano ka vulnerable ngayon si gabby? does he even care about her conditon? tss. 

nilapitan ko si gabby... but she already passed out... arghh!! kakalabas nya palang ng ospital and now she'll be back! sht. shit lang! 

"Kuya jeff... I'm dying..." rinig kong bulong nya habang karga karga ko sya papunta sa kotche ko. Binilisan ko yung pagpapatakbo ko ng sasakyan and in no time we reached the hospital agad syang tinignan nung doctor nya... si mr klifford. 

i shut my eyes hard... argh. why am I in love with her just now?! nakaka-- god damnit i'm frustrated as fck! 

What will happen to her? 

"Kuya jeff!" I heard ashley's voice coming out of nowhere, at sa pagmulat ko ng mata ko I saw her running to me, I quickly grabbed her and embraced her... unti unti nang tumulo yung luha sa mata ko. damn this gay sht. I'm worried as hell. 

"she's going to be okay" Ashley's words of assurance made me calm somehow... pero pano? knowing that anytime soon she'd soon be leaving... and I just can't let that happen... I just fell in love with her... 

selfish na kung selfish, but I dont want to loose her now... 

"I love her ash..." naramdaman ko yung kamay ni ashely papaakyat sa likod ko... 

"I know... I know you do... and she's going to be okay... you two are going to be okay... trust me... you'll have plenty of time together... you'll have each other's hand forever... nothing will happen to her... she's my cousin... she's super gabrielle... the girl who will do anything for you..." di ko na napigilan yung pag iyak ko... 

remembering what made me kiss her was not just because of my plain jealousy... it's also because of her timer...

alam kong tumatakbo nalang doon ang buhay nya... and when I saw how small her time is... I just wanted to kiss her... I wanted to kiss her so badly, I want her to be in my arms for her remaining time even though i never wanted it to end... 

I just realized that I love her... and now... I'm loosing her... 

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Note: waaaah naiiyak na kooooooo dedicated uli kay ate.... huhubells... kaya ayaw ko tong iupdate kase patapos na syaaa