I Am Fine For Now

Chapter 4

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NOT SO MATURE BUT ....YES! MATURE CONTENT AHEAD

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On her wedding day Minu was nervous and afraid because she was going to spent the rest of her life in a place she barely know. Though she will know about the place later on but a sudden fear of leaving her parents grabbed her hard. 

On her first day with her husband she was afraid. When her husband came to his....no their room. She got startled up. 

Her husband Sanjeev asked, "What happened?"

"Ah...nothing...I was just....I was just..." She stammered.

"Okay forget it." Saying this he turned off the white light and turn on the dim green light.  

He lie down on the bed. Minu was still sitting on the bed dared not to look at her husband. 

"Why are you sitting there, lie down?" 

"Mn..."

She lie down. As she was about to close her eyes someone hovered over her and it was her husband Sanjeev. She was confused. She was unable to understand what he was going to do with her.

He kissed her roughly which made her lips slightly bleeding. She could smell strong alcohol from his mouth. Vomit rose to her throat. The way Sanjeev was touching was touching her made her feel disgusted to the core. She tried to free herself, but his grip was so strong on her that she can't able to break it. 

She said, "What are you doing? Let me go....you are making me feel disgusted."

"If we not do this then how are you going to give birth to my heir. Huh?" His said raising his voice. Anger could be sense in his voice. Minu went silent. She did not dare to say any word after that. 

She flinched a little bit when she felt his fingers were inside her. He was continuously kissing her on her mouth. When he pulled out her fingers outside her she felt relief, but that wasn't the end. His hand grabbed her left bosom and squeezed it hard. She let out a whisper scream. 

She called her parents and brothers in her mind. She felt so disgusted that she want to die. But the thought of having a child after doing this kind of disgusting things made her hold back. Her husband was a total unknown man to her. At school whenever her male friend touch her she would came home and tell her mother about this. And her mother would say, "Minu don't let any male touch you again except your husband."

"But why? Even my brothers won't able to touch me then, ma?" Minu would ask innocently.

"No your brothers can touch you but not them because you have blood relations with your brothers."

And Minu would just make an "O" shape by her lips. 

Minu was lost in her thoughts when she felt an immense pain in her lower abdomen. She screamed, "Aaaaahhhhh."

"Don't.... don't.... scream." Sanjeev said panting.

Minu furrowed her brows at him. She felt something was inside her. When he thrashed her hard she let out another loud scream. This time he covered his mouth with his hand tightly. She can't bear the pain. Ultimately she cried. Warm tears flowed down her cheeks. She remembered what her elders said to her before her marriage. 

They said, "When your husband will make love to you don't feel shy, obey his orders and go with his flow." 

She didn't get it then. But she understand it now. She cried even more.

"Your body is so good, no wonder you are virgin." Sanjeev commented.

He withdraw his hand from her mouth and put her hand on her mouth. After that his thrashing became harder and faster. She can't scream. The pain was unbearable. She bite her wrist making her hand bleed.  

She prayed to God 'Please let this pass quickly, I can't take it anymore.'

But it looks like God didn't heard her prayers. He continued to do his job and kept hurting her till he felt asleep over her body.

She pushed him aside. She wanted to go to the bathroom so she tried to get up.But she felt immense pain down there which made her fall behind. Even though the pain was killing her she tried to get up. When she was able to get up she grabbed her saari and went to the bathroom. She was all naked. She watched herself in the mirror and she saw scratching marks, biting marks all over her body. Her lips were swollen and blood was still oozing out. her wrist was also bleeding. She saw blood on her thighs. 

She chuckled bitterly at it and said, "Is this called virgin blood?"

She fell down on the bathroom and cried. She thought 'Why does every women have to endure this pains all alone. Why not boys? Why?' 

Then she coaxed herself and said, "No I am doing this for my Baby. It had to come to this world." 

She prepared a hot bath for herself and lied on the bath tub. As her body got immersed into the water the pain increased. She hissed in pain but she didn't get up from the water.

The next morning Sanjeev left for the office early at 7 am. She got up but she can't able to walk properly. She was limping. The cramps on her back and waist and lower abdomen made her remember her first period. Her abdomen was paining and she can't bear it. She cried whole day for that. Seeing her limping her mother-in-law came to her and patting her head she said, "You have done a good job."

She was angry at her but didn't show it to her. 

She thought 'You said I have done a good job, but I was hurt. I was hurt so bad. I was even bleeding. Yes I am doing it for my children but that doesn't mean I have to endure his beast like behaviour.' 

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