Not the same

Chapter 12: emotion hurt

I was now sitting next to my ex Riley, the one who cheated me. The one I loved for almost 4 years.

"Justine I can't do this anymore" he began

"Do what? I don't understand"

"Chantell. It's not the same J"

"Don't. Don't J me"

"Justine she's draining me out. I-I thought I could do it with out being hurt"

"Do what?" I interrupted

He gulped "cheating"

I looked at him with the most confused face " you? Hurt? Shut the fuck up Riley forreal. You sound like fool. You hurt me. You cheating on me but you feel hurt? How the FUCK do you think I feel huh? " I wanted to strangle him right there, instead I looked out the window.

"Justine I'm sorry okay" I heard quiet sobs " i know I hurt you Justine but I regret every moment of it. I regret it all. I never realised what I had until I lost it. Justine look at me. I'm a mess"

I looked over at him slowly. Tears rolled down his eyes. They were bloodshot staring at me. His hair looked a mess. His face was slightly pale with dark circles under his eyes.
I sighed and started my car pulling out an driving to my house.

I texted Bahja an had told her what happened. I told her to catch a lift with charlotte an Brandon when she was ready.

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My house was quiet chilly so put on the heater and got some blankets. I made my famous hot coco and sat with Riley on the couch.

"Thank you Justine. "

I nodded and sipped on my hot coco.

"Justine you know I still love you. I can't stop loving you."

I froze as the words sank into my head before replying "no you don't. If you did we would still be together."

"I know I was a fool a huge one but I'm sorry. I really am. I want to start over. Make it up to you. Justine, I'm asking for another chance."

I looked at him. I could see the passion in his eyes. The hurt on his face. I could see he meant it. I nodded and let him know he had one more chance.

He put his cup down then put mine down too. He pulled me close to him and I let him. We laid there in silence, he seemed tired and relieved. I let him sleep.

As I was dozing off I got a call from Bahja. I answered and creeped out the room.

"Hey B"

"I'm around the corner J cone help me with my stuff"

"I'll be right out"

I hung up and put on my pumps before opening the door and seeing Brandon pull up with Bahja in the back.

She said her Goodbyes after grabbing her stuff. I helped her inside and brought her stuff to my room.

"Why'd you disappear with him?" she asked

"Shhhh he's in the front sleeping" i signalled her to follow me up.

"We talked and he told me how he felt. He told me he loved me"

Her face fell a little

"H-how do you feel about him?" she asked.

"I said I'd give him another chance"

She looked down" I'm yh ganna take a shower." She took her bag into my bathroom.

I knew she felt used. But I love Bahja I didn't want her to feel that way. I took out a few candles I had stored in my draws and lit them to set the mood. I turned the night off and fixed the bed. I wanted to show Bahja I was all hers.

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