One more... || Chanlix [Stray Kids]

Chan's crisis

{A/N: I just love The Neighbourhood and almost every song of them. and I know Chan does too... So you better I give them a listen 👀😢}

It shouldn't have happened, but Chan spend the rest of the Sunday laying in bed and playing The Neighbourhood instead of finishing his work and fell asleep earlier than what he expected.
Why was he listening to TNBH in repeat you may ask?
Well he was just replaying how Felix lips almost touched his. Is not like he wanted them to kiss... Or maybe he did, just a tiny bit, but he didn't know yet. It was nothing important, why was it bothering him so much? He has done that to other people, but when he was fixed on the younger's freckles... He leaned in out of nowhere, it felt quite amazing, as if his soul was ascending something even better than heaven.

His skin felt soft, and his eyes were mesmerising. Not to talk about how he got closer with so much grace and confidence. What took Chan for surprise was how he dissappeared right after that... They got to be together just like 15 minutes, why did he leave so fast?

He felt asleep thinking about why and how a boy made him feel that way, and was having a serious identity crisis. So next day, at university, he decided to try something...

It was Monday and lunch time, and as usual Chan, Jisung and Changbin went to the cheap convince store just one street away from their university to buy some food and microwave it on the spot. Was it the healthiest option? No, but it was what they could afford.

Chan worked mornings from 7 to 11:30 in a small art supply shop, he had some classes after that and then another couple in the afternoon, just like Changbin. Jisung had all his classes in the morning but he stayed for lunch with his other two friends.

They were eating what they bought in a table that was outside the convince store.

- Hey Bin, how much do you like girls? - Chan asked. He needed to get some shit clear on his head.

- I like girls a lot... what do you mean by how much dude? -.

- So... do you like more girls or boys? -.

- Personally, I like more boys, but I would kill for a girlfriend at this moments- He laughed a little.

- But why are you asking Chan hyung? - Jisung entered the conversation - Are you questioning? -.

Chan was about to deny everything, but couldn't lie to his best friends... - I think I may be having an actual identity crisis right now - His hands went to his hair and grabbed it while shaking his head.

- Wow there man, chill, its okay - Jisung stoped the older - I had my times too -.

- Wait what? You what? - Chan looked up at him.

- I said, I also had questioning times, it's normal. Well I had them at high school like everyone man. But I guess you are just kinda a  late bloomer -.

- Wait jisung, why did you question your sexuality? - Changbin asked this time laying his head on his hands, curious.

- Well, once there was this guys in my class when I was 16 named Jaemin, he was kinda pretty and was also very cute. For a couple of weeks I had a whole mental breakdown becouse I thought I liked him but it turned  out it was just platonic, I don't know why I made a big deal out of it. I just realized that even if you were straight you could still think boys were pretty you know man? But I didn't felt any sexual attraction at all, so I just made a mountain out of a molehill -.

({I love minsung but jisung is straight here I'm very sorry guys, I don't even belive him being straight but ILY guys}).

- Oh wow, for me I just knew it since I was little, and my parents didn't care so it felt natural for me to like everyone, even my mom likes girls. So I just thought everyone liked everyone. Then I discovered straight people exist and got sad... Then I remembered gay people also exist and got better! - Changbin explained and lifted his thumb wjth a mocky smile at the end of the phrase.