ORANGE BLOSSOM [vkook]

53: trust

Jungkook sat in bed as he looked at Taehyung that just finished undressing. He got in bed next to the raven. But his expression was still troubled.

Jungkook noticed and pressed his lips in a thin line. He was already thinking he knew what was going on in Taehyung's mind.

"what's wrong?" jungkook asked. Even if he already knew where the answer was going.

"h-how do i know y-you wont d-do it again.."

"i can promise you"

"b-but you p-promised me before. A-and you broke it" taehyung said, again tearing up. But he refused to cry.

"i know, i know i did wrong. I know i fucked up" jungkook said and sighed leaning his head against the wall. "i'm not asking you to forgive me. You can decide yourself whenever you want to or not."

"I don't think I can now" Taehyung said. "i-i don't trust y-you now"

"I understand," Jungkook said, nodding.

"why w-was she a-actually here?" taehyung wanted to know what was going on. He felt a bit better knowing that Jungkook regretted what happened and sent Hanna away. But he still felt hurt by it all. He needed to know everything.

"my.....Parents." Jungkook started.He decided it was best to tell Taehyung the whole story. No more lying and hiding. "they planned a marriage for me. Which would be Hanna in their eyes."

Jungkook could see Taehyung's face drop to a unhappy one.

"but i didn't want it! Only i had to take her home, i can't go against them they...They..I don't know."

"why didnt y-you tell m-me?" taehyung asked, sounding disappointed. "d-didnt you trust m-my love? I-i would understand"

"i didnt want to hurt you by saying that. I thought it was better to not tell you and fix it before something would happen....But i waited too long.

"i don't l-like you d-didn't tell me..." Taehyung said. He was hurt that Jungkook hid something like that from him. What if he didnt catch Jungkook that day, what would have happened.

"i'm sorry...I won't hide anything from you again like that"

"hm.."

Jungkook sighed every question or thing taehyung said was like a pang to his heart. Every time feeling that intense regret in his heart

"Why didnt y-you push her o-off?....."

"i...." Jungkook should have seen that coming but still. He didn't know how to explain it. "i was caught off guard. And it felt good, so i reacted too late.."

"i-it felt...Good...." taehyung repeated he looked down at his hands. "d-didnt i make you f-feel good? w-why her. you had me! Am i not good enough? Am I bad in bed, is that why? Please I can't take it." taehyung sniffled a bit but wasn't crying. He refused to be weak now.

"Tae.."

"no, y-you really hurt me a lot...I hate you for that. How can i trust y-you now...When you let h-her in our house. C-cling on to you, i-ignore me. Couldn't you see?! you ignored what i said. You only had attention for her. You left with her to have ice and I had to walk home alone. She insulted me daily, but you didn't care." taehyung was letting all his thoughts out. Jungkook had to know how he was feeling that time, the time that jungkook ignored him like that.

But he wasn't done there.

"i had trusted you to love me, to care for me, to let you close to me. I gave you everything I had, everything of me. Only for you to break my heart. I couldnt take it anymore. That was the last drop Kook. I didn't want to go on..." taehyung said as he held his wrist. He remembered when he cutted. He didn't feel regret after. It felt good. And he had thought of just ending it all, so he won't be hurt any longer.

But Jungkook just had to come in his way at school. Interrupting his plan.

"Tae..I am so sorry, i'm so sorry. I didn't want to hurt you. I really didn't. you aren't bad at all, you are perfect. It hurts me too to hear all this. I will be better, I promise" jungkook said.

"p-promises w-will be b-broken anyway..."

"believe me, it wont, please.."

Taehyung looked around for a moment. This was the place he used to be happy. But it felt different now. jungkook felt different. He himself felt different. He didn't feel that bright light inside of him anymore.

He noticed Jungkook had put the flowers he collected in a vase. He looked at it for a long time, he remembered that he got them that day.

"the letter you wrote that time..." Jungkook started. "your stutter isn't annoying at all. I believe your words. Dont be troubled by it."

"people s-say they h-hate it.."

"i don't"

"hm.." taehyung sighed and laid down. "kookie?"

"yes?"

"i w-will try to b-believe you.."

"then i will work hard to make it up. To earn you back, I will not make you regret it."

"c-can i get a hug?" taehyung asked. He needed some comfort.

"anytime" jungkook hugged him.

"g-goodnight"

"goodnight Tae"

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They needed some talk. Im so bad at angsty things. I added it in the story but i have no clue myself how to even fix it...Eh-

But yea see i at the next chapter.
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