Two ear's and a Tail

8

i wake up to shouting, a load of chearing and wooping, i hear the doors down the corridor being opened and all my siblings being called out, including me, but i just stay curled up in bed, the will to get up not there, i just lay here all day, all night, enegy surges through me now and again and i am contantly feeling like my skeliton is not mine anymore as if it doesn't belong in my skin it's that uncomfortable. 

my door opens and theirs cheering, but i curl up tighter and the cheering calms down a bit, "to the kitchen!" i hear someone shout but their hyperactive states aren't working for them after they see my unnaturally depressed state.

"come on, Ash, it's our tenth birthday!" i hear one of my siblings say, but i ignore them.

"Ash, you need to get up, we'er going to get to shift tonight!" another says.

"come on, kids, we'll catch up to you!" i hear them all run away while i stay laid in bed, only for something else to run in, take a bite and run out, the door slams shut and i hear it get locked while i just stay laid down, "Ashley?" i don't answer, my mother and fathers are calling my name and i don't even have it in me to answer them anymore.

"please baby!" i hear my mothers shaky voice, they come up to me and give me a big hug, "cry for me!" i hear mother say and my body shakes, "cry, just cry, cry, cry and more crying, please!" he pleads and that's what i do, i cry, i cry for every bite i get through the day, i cry for what Oliver did to me, i cry for not being able to be human, i cry for the way i am, i cry for my anxieties, my poor fluffy, the abuse i get on a normal school day, the worry i cause everyone, the pain i cause everyone, why do i have to be this way?

"we love you, we all love you to bits and we all want you to be happy, we need you to be happy and feel happy, Ashley!" Addy is the one with the sentemental words as he cries.

"no matter how hard your finding it, don't shut us all out, Ash, because we are here for you and we will always be here for you!" Naddy says and i gain strength in my arms.

"i want to be happy!" i cry and so do they, i hold them and i hold them tight, but they hold me even tighter and it's so comforting.

"well it's your birthday, so please try to be happy!" mum says and i nod, they get up and give me a smile, "we do want you to come down at some point!" mummy says.

"especially tonight!" Addy says, pettingmy hair, i nod and they walk out.

i feel so broken, it doesn't hurt anymore, i'm all healed up and i continue to be healed up. i just feel weird, and i'm constantly being bitten by random vampires who think they can just come in and leave after they've had a bite, i don't want to be bitten, i feel like i have no privacy, i can't even have a nights sleep without being bitten and i'm always worried about it all.

i get in the shower and begin to wash my hair, i'm most sorry to my family in all of this, they don't deserve this, they already have busy lives, we'er like the biggest Alpha family known to man and now they have to deal with me....maybe i should just run away.....no, i can't, i have nowhere to go, i could go to the city and find someone to help? no one will help you Ashley, don't be an idiot...

i let out a long, tired sigh, turning the shower off and getting dressed and dried, i open my bedroom door and peek up and down the hall, hearing the small amounts of laughter and cheering downstairs from my thriteen siblings. i continue walking down the hall, skipping down the stairs slowly and boringly, do they even want me? i peek around the corner of the livingroom to see them all laughing and talking, i slowly walk in and take the closest seat i can reach and sit, curled up with my tail.

mummy and dads turn and smile, along with the others, Raylie and Xarah and Kade comes over and sits with me, curling up and i smile at their warmth, "Addy and Naddy have the house securely locked and the borders thick with patrol to maeke sure today is good for everyone" Xarah says into my mind and i drop my head onto her, that makes me feel a lot better, not going to lie.