Never Compare

Part 4

(Y/n) walks out of the station and to the nearest store that sells fancy clothing.
Of course her go bag only has pjs, a blouse and black pants.
The clerk behind the desk looks over and smiles. "Hello love. Can I help you find something specific?"
"I need something that will catch a man's attention." (Y/n) replies and looks around.
The man laughs softly and nods. "Doesn't every girl. Are you looking for a dress or skirt, perhaps?"
"Definitely a dress." (Y/n) responds and bites her lip.
The dresses were more elegant than she anticipated but they'd work.
"Try the next aisle, the third dress on the right."
The 28 year old follows instructions and looks at the dress.
It was exactly what was needed.
White, lace and modest but elegant.
She grabs her size and goes to try it on.
It fits just right too.
The clerk wolf whistles when she comes out. "Am I good or am I good, woo!"
"I hope you don't mind, I took the tag off right away. I need to wear it now."
"Sure. What's the occasion?"
"It's a surprise." She responds and hands him the cash. She holds a bag of her wallet and clothes.
The clerk waves his fingers as she leaves, waving as well.

(Y/n) sighs softly and walks down the street.
Of course her plan wasn't a complete one.
She has no idea how to get him to take her.
Although as she walks through the park she comes across a man with a group of children.
He smiles and his handsome face makes the girl blush.
Upon looking at the children her eyes widen.
It's the missing children.
(Y/n) looks around but no one is around. She takes a deep breath and walks over.
The man looks up quickly but smiles kindly. "Good day beautiful."
"Hello. Your kids are so precious. I wish I had a child as cute as them."
"Would you like mine? They're driving me crazy." He jokes and laughs softly.
(Y/n) laughs softly but gasps when he chloroforms her. She falls limp into his arms.

When she wakes up she groans and holds her head.
The dress she's wearing is the same at least.
(Y/n) looks around but the children aren't there.
"You've finally woken up. You're even more beautiful in person mother. That other guy didn't deserve you, that's why he got caught. He didn't even accomplish his goal, but I will. All we need is Spencer. You two will be happy I promise. The others I got to watch the children weren't good enough. They needed to die so you would come here. I'm so happy mother."
(Y/n) listens to his monologue and couldn't help wondering what the goal is.
Is it that her and Spencer end up together? Is it just her happiness?
The man clears his throat. "No cameras in the bathroom I promise. The children are in the next room. You're free to use the kitchen as well. All the supplies you'll need are in the third room."
"What's your name son?"
"I'm Wesley, mother."
"Wesley please give back three of the four children ok? I only want one, the baby. And please don't kill anyone else. It makes mother really sad."
"But mother I thought you wanted a big, happy family?"
(Y/n) shakes her head. "No. The other guy got it wrong. I only want one. Were you two having a contest to see who could make me the happiest?"
"Yeah! He gloated that he was the best. He told me his ridiculous plan. I'm glad I went second. Now it's my turn and I'm gonna win."
"How will you escape capture and make me happy?"
"I'll be leaving in a moment to get Spencer."
"And what then? He doesn't always play Father very well."
"Then I will force him to."
The sound of a gun loading echoes in her ears.
"Will you hurt him?"
"Maybe." Wesley responds.
"Will you give back the children?" (Y/n) asks, sitting on the bed.
"Yes. The three oldest will be returned, alive. Then when I return you will see your love."
(Y/n) takes a deep breath. "Why me?" She finally asks.
"Because you're my mother. I want you to be happy." Wesley answers then leaves.
(Y/n) blushes and looks at her lap.

Half an hour later (Y/n) hears soft crying so she walks to the next room and picks the baby up.
The boy looks at the woman and gurgles.
(Y/n) rocks him gently. "Are you hungry?" She questions and makes a bottle.
He makes cute noises then drinks once she holds it to his lips.
The woman hums softly as she sways.
Once he finishes she sets the bottle down and burps him.
He hiccups and burps gently.
(Y/n) giggles and pokes his nose.
"Still wonderful with babies." A familiar voice comments.
She slowly turns to see Spencer.
He smiles and walks toward her. He pets the boy's head.
She didn't know how to feel. She loves Aaron and would never dream of leaving him. But now she's having flashbacks to her feelings for Reid.
"NEVER COMPARE"
JJ's voice echoes in her mind, then Reid's.
She can't even pretend to want him.
"Did you come willingly or did he knock you out?" She asks.
The doctor shakes his head. "He held a gun to my back and told me he had you. Then he told me he returned the children."
"Good. He did as promised."
"It's late mother. It's time for bed." Wesley says through the speaker.
(Y/n) nods and looks down at the baby. She sings softly until he falls asleep. "They'll find us eventually." She whispers as she lays him down.
Spencer rubs her back and leads her out of the room.
They walk to their room and look at the bed.
It's a queen so they would both have enough space.
"Good night mother, father. We'll have lots of fun soon."
(Y/n) doesn't want to know what that means.
They change into pjs and crawl into bed.
"Hold her close father." The deep voice of the unsub orders.
(Y/n) blushes deeply as she lays on her side.
Her back faces Reid but she could feel him move closer.
The arm she longed for is finally wrapped around her. The large hand gently rubs her stomach.
"Does your stomach hurt? Hotch never said if you were sick or not."
"I'm fine." She whispers and closes her eyes.
"I wish I could go back to when you confessed. I would kick myself and tell you that I love you too. We could've been like this every night. Late nights talking about anything and everything."
Tears stream down the woman's cheeks.
"You will always love JJ. You can deny it all you want but it's true. I can't compare to her Spencer. I have someone now and you should move on too."
Spencer's hand stops for a few moments.
"Then let's enjoy this until the team comes. Let's pretend how we should have months ago."
(Y/n) thinks about it and bites her lip.
Would Aaron understand if she played the part? Would he forgive her if she intentionally cheated on him like this? The unsub wouldn't do anything crazy right? He promised the murders would stop.
"Only until the team gets here." She whispers and moves closer to him.