Disdainful Dream (Lincoln Academy Series #3)

Chapter 16

Disappear.

Collage days ....

2 years passed 

He doesn't stop , he's always there , he keeps following me in the passed 2 years halos linggo linggo akong nakakatangap ng bulaklak galing sa kaniya madalas pinapasoli ko iyon pero pag busy ang sched ko hinahayaan ko nalang madali naman magtapon walking distance lang ang basurahan 

Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyare I just know that I'm tired , tired of making myself look like a fool because of a unworthy guy , a guy that doesn't deserve even the half of me and  I must say that I moved on but those pain still lingers in my heart at some time and I'm still full of wrath to that person , I'm still furious and I don't know If I can forgive after all that happened , it will be a miracle to let someone in again 

Hindi ko magawang magtiwala at maniwala cause he destroy the last of me two years ago and I'm done dying many times because of him , its time to live for my self sarili ko naman , sarili ko muna after all wala naman akong kasama ng mga panahong iyon kundi ang sarili ko and hell I marked in my mind that I really deserve the best 

" Pinapabigay ni Benj " ani ni Sai sabay lapag ng box na puno ng favorite snacks ko 

They become close because they are classmates in shs alam kong galit na galit siya noon kay Benjamin kaya hindi ko alam kung anong nangyare bigla at nagkasundo sila 

Dreams do come true huh? but not him certainly not him

" Bakit mo nanaman siya tinutulungan nanaman Sai " ani ko pero as expected di nanaman niya ko sinagot same old Saiyren Pein 

iniurong ko lang sa gawi niya ang box tsaka nagfocus muli sa mga paper works ko pero tinulak niya pabalik ang box 

" Madaming nagugutom na tao wag kang magsayang " may diin na aniya kaya kinuha ko ang laman at nagbukas ng isa puro chocolates sa bagay  inaantok ako kanina pa 

So I ate it hindi naman siguro masama binigay niya e bakit ba ? but it doesn't mean that I will be fooled again by his charming looks and sweet gestures hindi nako marupok , kung noon halos ibigay ko ang lahat ngayon pinagdadamot ko na sa kaniya ang lahat kahit patak or even the smallest atom of my attention and affection 

I focus my attention on my paper works , there's many that I need to finish right now sumasabay pa ang minors ko I just hated everything hindi gaya noon napaka haba ko magpasensya ngayon wala na talaga isa lang siguro iyong tanda na sobrang naubos talaga ako noon and for a while I know that I lose myself those times because of giving to much to that person and it consume me because I'm pouring all the love back then that I forget how to love myself right 

" Ashwin may theater event daw this incoming foundation day mag aaudition ka ?" aniya ni Sai pagkatapos ng mahabang katahimikan 

" nope . I don't need to  ,someone offered me the main role " confident na ani ko ngumisi naman siya and I find it very sarcastic parang may nakakatawa sa sinabi ko at siya lang ang may alam

" Really ? sino?" aniya 

" Some of the theater club officers si Melliza sabe niya escort daw ng club ang nagrecommend sakin cause they don't have a muse yet busy naman kase ako i don't really ought to join a club , there's so much on my plate right now  " ani ko 

" But you're willing to portray ?" puno ng pagasa niyang tanong i find it weird cause I know Saiyren she's not up for something that don't catches her attention to the core 

" Maybe , I'll see if I can finish this weeks paper work then I'll decide " kibit balikat na ani ko ignoring her suspicious moves 

" hm. maybe huh? interesting " nakangising aniya tsak nagpatuloy sa pagbabasa ng law taxation daw nila