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~yeona~
i take out my phone and dial his number, i need to hear him right now, i need to hear that everything will be okay, that i have someone that loves me even if it's a lie. but he doesn't answer.
i slowly make my way towards the bathroom, tears streaming down my face. i open the cabinet and take out some pills, i glance at the small calendar that i keep there, today marked with a circle.
i had been planning this for months but i kept delaying the day, i couldn't do it because of him. but the more i delayed it the more i would make him suffer, and the more i would suffer myself. when i met him i thought he could be my savior, maybe he would be a strong enough reason to keep living, but i guess i was wrong. it was selfish of me to think that way, i didn't realize how much i would hurt him by doing this.
i tried my best to not get close to him, but all my efforts were in vain. sometimes i liked to think that love was a good enough reason, but is it really? how can i know that it's genuine when no one has ever showed me love? how can i know that he won't leave just like everyone else?
i'm so weak it's actually amusing, everyone has bigger and more important problems than i do, yet here i am, taking the easy way out. maybe in my next life i'll be stronger and i'll be able to overcome anything.
i take a look at myself in the mirror, i look ridiculous. my eyes are red and puffy, my face is so hollow it's scary and i have dark circles underneath my eyes. i already look dead.
i slowly open the pills and take a fistful, i glance at myself in the mirror one last time and i head to my bedroom. i lay in my bed as i drift into eternal slumber.
but the only thing i can think about is him.
thank you for everything heeseung, i love you.
The end
Welp this is it guys, please don't hate me :( i never planned on writing a happy ending story like you always see in movies, it's made to depict something more real. Thank you to everyone who read this story, I am so thankful with each one of you. i will post an epilogue and an alternate ending in which she doesn't die. love you all, have an amazing day!! <3
