Frozen Desires

Elsa's spiritual celebration - Day 1 (Part 2)

Note: This chapter contains a scene that's a little more on the mature side, read at your own risk!

Enjoy!

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I hear Kristoff calling out my name, but I ignore it and I run to my tent. 

I lift up the entrance to my tent, and let it fall behind me. 

I drop to my knees in front of my bed as I start feeling hot and hyperventilating.

Anxiety.

I take a deep breath and I feel light headed.

I can hear my heart pounding in my head.

Fear

Fear of being alone

My breath is shortening and I clutch my chest, feeling pain.

I hear a faint voice, "RYDER!"

It's a voice I recognize.

Kristoff runs inside the tent and sits in front of me. I take a deep breath, and try to calm down as soon as I can. I don't want him to see me like this..

"Ryder?? Is everything okay? What happened?!"

I look at him and I take a deep breath.

Ease

"Y-Yeah I'm fine.." I sigh and I keep taking deep breaths.

"What's happening?? Why are you breathing like that...?"

"I um.."

I can't tell him how my anxiety got triggered. But I need to tell him that I have it, and what happened..

"I'm sorry.."

"Ryder don't apologize, what happened?"

"I have anxiety.. I have my whole life."

"What..?" His concern expression turned into sympathy.

"Why didn't you tell me before? I could've helped prevent whatever triggered it."

I sighed, "I don't want anyone to think of me as 'the boy with anxiety.' I don't want anyone to have to feel bad for me, or have to watch everything they do."

Kristoff's sympathetic expression changed into a smile, which warmed my heart.

"You're not alone, I'm your friend."

Happiness

"But.. what triggered it?" He asked.

I can't do this.. but I have to,

"I guess I was just nervous for this week.."

Lie

"I know we've been up since sunrise getting the reindeer ready, I'm really sorry if that also worsened it.."

I looked up and I saw a worried look on his face,

"Hey, don't worry. I'm okay. I'm feeling better now."

"Are you sure?"

I nod and I take a deep breath. He looks at me with the same concerned look as before, and we lock eyes. It feels like time just slowed down.

Care

He smiles and he pulls me into a hug. 

I close my eyes and a tear slowly rolls down my face, but this time, a happy tear.