Frozen Desires

Elsa's spiritual celebration - Day 1 (Part 3)

We both laugh, and it quickly gets awkward. I try my best to break the ice (no pun intended-), "So, what does Ahtohallan look like? My sister told me you said it was beautiful."

"Oh- Honeymaren? Yeah! I did. It really is beautiful. It's a huge glacier with a few obstacles, but at the end, I saw some crystals with the symbols of all the spirits. It's just so.. I can't even begin to explain how amazing it is."

Seeing her face light up while talking about Ahtohallan is soothing. I like seeing others happy. But I want to find my happiness like everyone else has too.. I take a deep breath and smile.

"I'm really happy for you, Elsa."

"Thank you," she smiled.

"Well, I'd better go talk to my sister. Take care," I wave and I leave.

Do I have to talk to my sister?

..

no.

But I'd like to tell her what I feel.

Honeymaren's POV:

I sit on my bed, as I read my favorite book. It's about a girl who's trying to hide something from herself. She doesn't want to believe it, and that secret is her identity. As I flip through the pages, I hear someone trying to lift up the entrance to my tent.

I look up, and Ryder is walking in, clearly trying to hold back tears.

My eyes widen..

Ryder's POV:

I look for Honeymaren's tent around the campgrounds. Once I spot it, I run toward it. I lift up the entrance and I see her reading a book. The small conversation with Elsa left me trying to hold back my tears.

She looks at me in a concerned way and I walk to her bed. I sit next to her. Without saying a word, she tosses the book to the side and holds me in her arms. 

"What happened..?" She asks.

"I.."

I can't.

I let out the tears.

I try not to cry too loud, because I don't want anyone to see me like this.

I touch my cheeks, and they're hot from crying already.

"I just don't feel like I'll ever find my people.." I lay my head on my sister's shoulder as she caresses my arm with her hand.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean that whenever I find someone that could actually stick with me forever, someone or something has to come up and ruin everything.." I continue crying, and I wipe as many tears as I can with my sleeves.

"Can you describe what happened?" she asked. 

I nodded and I described the situations with Kristoff and Elsa. I explained the anxiety attack and the awkwardness. I explained how I feel like an outsider sometimes, and she was there to listen.

"Oh.." she said. "Well, with Kristoff, if he understands that you feel lonely, he'll definitely sacrifice time for you. As for Elsa, don't rush to find love. Let it find you."

"But you know Elsa.. can't you try and play matchmaker..?"

"I don't know her too well. I'm working on it. But, I'll see what I can do, okay?" she says, and tightens her arms around me. She's the best sister I can ever ask for. "Don't cry, okay? I'll always be here for you."