Frozen Desires

Lake party - Day 6 (Part 3)

Ryder's POV:

I'm in my tent, the flap zipped shut.

I lay on my bed crying my eyes out.

I trusted him.

He was the only person I trusted besides my sister..

I turn around on my stomach, and scream into my pillow, causing all sorts of emotions to spill out of my eyes and onto it.

My vision is blurry and my eyes are puffy. I look at the clock, 3:30pm.

The party's already started and there's no way that I'm going.

It's been an hour since I yelled at Kristoff, and I haven't stopped crying since.

It kind of hurts that he hasn't come back by now, because it just shows how much he "really cares."

"I'll never f-find my people.." I say to myself, staring at the ceiling in between sniffles.

I breath is shaky and my hands are trembling.

I'm still angry at him.

I'm still hurt by him.

But I still love him.

No.. stop it, Ryder. He hurt you.

He hurt you and broke you.

He has no right to have your love.

Not like he wants it anyways.. of course he's straight and engaged.

And blamed me for that kiss.

The kiss was magical at the time. It was all I could think about for hours.

But now, it's the last thing I want on my mind.

I hate him so much.

I close my eyes and try to go back to sleep.

Kristoff's POV:

I get ready for the party, and I keep trying to hold back my tears, hoping I'd be able to see Ryder and apologize.

I put on my swimming trunks and a t shirt to go over. 

I look at myself in the mirror.

I look like I haven't slept for days.

I take a deep breath, drink water, and force a smile on my face.

I go outside toward the lake. I scan the crowd.

Honeymaren runs up to me, "Hey Kristoff, why do you look so.. swollen?"

I touch my face. My cheeks are red and hot from crying. My eyes are puffy.

"O-Oh.."

I need to come up with something.

"I have.. allergies."

"Oh.. to what?"

"I-I'm not sure yet.." I say, and she nods slowly, slightly unconvinced.

"Well, I hope you figure it out!" She says, and walks to Elsa.

So.. she doesn't know about what I did to Ryder.. 

I take a deep breath.

I look at Honeymaren, who has her arm wrapped around Elsa.

I can't keep hurting your brother, Maren.. 

I scan the crowd again, and I don't see him.