Frozen Desires

Lake party - Day 6 (Part 5)

Kristoff's POV:

I passionately kiss Ryder, with tongue. Ever since I laid my eyes on his, I couldn't help but kiss him. He has beautiful ocean eyes. As soon as I kissed him, I felt intense butterflies in my stomach. The one's I've been lacking with Anna. I pull him closer by the waist as the kiss gets a little more intimate.

I've missed the feeling of his lips.

I've missed the feeling of being in love.

Don't get me wrong, I was in love with Anna, but I kind of fell out when I kissed Ryder.. I never really knew why. I've been questioning my sexuality for a few days because of him. Now I'm proud of what my tears, regret, and guilt has come to; I'm here with my lips on his and it feels magical.

I feel him slow down. It felt like we were about to take this to another level, and I respectfully slow down. I move my hands down to his lap, where they meet his hands. The kiss softens and we eventually pull away.

"Kristoff, we can't do anything until you're sure of what's going to happen with your current relationship. I don't want to be a fling.." 

I admire that he is still considerate of my thing with Anna. But, I feel bad that I've been making him think that he's a fling. I reach my hand out to cup his face.

"You're not a fling, Ryder."

"But you're right.. I do need to figure it out with Anna. I'm going to talk to her now." I hold his hands and I squeeze them, "I promise I won't hurt you like that again."

He smiles, "Thank you. I trust you."

Those three words send a flutter of happiness around me. I can't mess this up again.

I cannot hurt him again.

And I will not.

A few minutes later.

I go to my tent, hoping to find Anna there.

I lift up the flap and I see her laying on the bed, reading.

"Hey," she says, not even looking up at her book.

She's mad at me.

"Is everything okay?" I ask.

"Why are you acting weird?" She asks with attitude, looking up from her book.

"I'm not."

"Kristoff, you've barely talked to me today."

"I just haven't been feeling well.."

"Why not?? You seemed fine when we talked."

I sigh. I'm not about to argue with her.

"You told me everything was fine, why do you keep lying to me?? It's like you want to call off this engagement! I don't know what's been going on with you, but I can't read your mind."

"Anna.. weren't my emotions enough to show how hurt I was? Did you even care enough to see it..?"

"What hurt? Who hurt you?" 

"You did," I say.

"Me??? Kristoff what the hell is wrong with you? I've been nothing but supportive. There's literally something wrong with you! I can't even-"

"I'M IN LOVE WITH RYDER," I say in a hard tone, which finally makes her stop.

"What..?" She says, with hurt in her eyes. I sigh.

"I'm bisexual, Anna.. I've been exploring my sexuality with Ryder. And.. I really like him.."

"You mean.. more than me...?"