Do you know who you are, what you are and why you came here into these human bodies? These questions usually surface during your young days. The answers are all within you, this book will help start you on a journey that you didn't know that you are...
During my young days, I had these unexplained knowing within me, but I had no one to turn to for answers to help clarify these feelings of knowing within me. Around the age of 4, I had the experience of entering my body and this created my first ever stable memory. I was leaving a place where I came from and entering this body. The first feeling I felt was being conscious and I notice I was in this unknown place with a pulling sensation. At this point I had no memories before this experience.
I realized that I am consciousness and as I was descending downwards, I looked up into what looked like space and there were clusters of colorful stars idling everywhere, they were less than a few hundred meters away from me. I knew they were energies of some sort and I felt loved by these energies. Later in life I found that they were just like me source energy or what we call, souls.
I continued starring at them, while getting pulled down and I could not remember who I really am other than being conscious. A few seconds later, I opened my eyes and saw the ceiling in great focus. I looked at my hands for the first time and I felt physical. This is the first time I woke up in such great awareness of being in a human body in my room. Surprisingly, I knew how to speak, I knew the members in my family, but I did not understand why I was here, who I was and what I was.
While I am physical having these amazing physical human experience, I started remembering memories of jumping experience into my body before the age of 4 but it was only brief. I understand that I could come and go until I was ready to stay within my body permanently. I had this knowing, but I felt I couldn't explain this to anyone, I didn't think anyone needed to know, so I kept it to myself until I build the courage to share it with 2 people close to me.
At this age I used my feelings as my personal guiding system. As the years went past, right up to my teens, I really wanted to know who I am, so, I learned about other religions, but it was focus in a way that my feelings would not agree with. The answers I was looking for in these Religions could not come close to my knowing. Some resonated with me and some did not. Obviously, my search started outside of me, I went seeking for answers and I experienced life in varies ways and slowly gathered answers from my experiences with others and from many wise people and Authors. Most importantly, these experiences, taught me that my emotions were my greatest teachers and my answers came from the way I felt about things in life. As in sifting through contrast to know what I want in life and to understand my true self's feelings.
During my early Twenties, I explored Tarot reading, Pendulum readings, getting readings from amazing Mediums and I believed in them because they were describing and reading off energies from those I lost and love so accurately. I realized that there must be some predestined plan before we came here. So, this brings me back to when I was 4 years old and very slowly, things began to unravel for me and then, I stop searching for more answers.
As time went past, in my late Twenties, I thought I had all the answers to my ongoing questions but sadly, not. I thought I figured out life but no, I was still asleep and life was boring. I lost myself in the process due to the high demands of life. I became so busy that I've forgotten who I was, I forgotten what I wanted to do in life and I forgotten my questions.
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There was a time when I was 30, I was going through a very painful situation. A dear friend of mine, who was a past lecturer to me, introduced me to meditation, he said this will help me heal gradually and give me peace of mind. I've heard about this but I never really practice it on a daily basis. So I took his words and did my first meditation. Little did I know I became so at peace with myself, it felt like the very first time when I came to Earth. I started meditating for 15 min to 1 hour in bed almost every night, sifting through my thoughts and making peace with them. Sometimes, I find if I can't meditate I just go to sleep instead.
I realized through meditation when I ask questions in a quiet mind I can hear voices very clearly popping out of nowhere answering my questions which sounds like my own voice but I knew I wasn't thinking it and that it wasn't me answering. I will see blocks of words going downwards, I will feel tinkling sensations on my left leg as confirmations. It was a profound feeling I had and I started to enjoy meditation more and more and I was always looking forward to it.
I couldn't tell anyone about these profound wisdom I was receiving. I just seem to enjoy these wisdom in my own experience and I continued the exploration of my mind, body and soul. I didn't feel the need to explain to anyone, I didn't think it would be important and that's all that mattered at that time.
