Hate Me / Love Me? || Hyunjin x Reader

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[Please listen to the song above as you read this chapter 😉]

Y/N POV

It's already 11:20 P.M.,

I planned to go back home from hanging out with Yuju and Eunbi before the sunset, but we had so much fun shopping that we forgot the time. Thank goodness, mom and dad weren't angry that I came back late. I put all the shopping bags and then took a nice warm shower. As I showered, I kept thinking of...

Hyunjin.

I can't believe what happened today, Hyunjin helped me.

If I think back again, Hyunjin was actually very sincere in helping me.

Also, if I'm not wrong he missed his destination station just to make sure I'm safe to my destination station right?

But... Why? Why is he willing to do that? Aren't we supposed to be enemies? Aren't we supposed to hate each other?

I don't know anymore at this point.. Hyunjin keeps making me fall for him more and more.

I have been trying to deny this feeling, but it's so hard.

Would Hyunjin like me back? What if all this time it's just me who caught in these feelings, while he has no feelings and all this time he's just being nice?

Thinking that Hyunjin might just being nice and have no feelings, somehow makes my heart ache.

In my entire 18 years of life, I've never ever felt loved by someone. Of course, my family and friends loved me. But what I meant is another type of love, a love comes from that special person. Every time I hear or read love stories of a couple, I get so jealous. Not only that every time I open instagram, I see people doing cute stuff with their boyfriends or girlfriends, I get jealous too.

I want to do those sweet things that couples do, like going to cafes, amusement parks, watching movies in theaters, night walks, having a picnic in the park, baking together, sending love notes or good night & morning messages, taking photo booth pictures, celebrating our anniversary and birthdays, and more. BUT WITH WHO?

It is frustrating. I always think, 'why is the world so unfair to me?' And it makes me think that maybe it's because my personality is not lovable enough? or is it because I'm not pretty enough?

I know.. I have so many flaws. I don't look pretty at all, I wear basic clothes, my everyday hairstyle is styled normally, I only can do simple basic make up, and I'm just a normal student at school.

I hate that in reality people judged other people based on their looks. I don't think I will be able to have a boyfriend in my life. Especially Hyunjin.

He's very different from me. He's popular with girls, tall, handsome, charming, and stylish. There's no way he will ever think of me.

I'm afraid if I fall in love with him too deeply, I will get hurt or even worse our friendship becomes awkward. 

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After I finished showering, put on pajamas, and also skincare. I checked my phone screen, before I charged the battery.

[ 1:12 A.M. ]

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EH? Hyunjin messaged and called me for real!? Oh yeah, I just remembered.. on the train he said to call him when I get back home.

I TOTALLY FORGOT.

Right then Jeongin knocked on my door and opened it,

"Noona, you know, Hyunjin hyung is worried because of you. He keeps asking me if you already at home," he said,

"sorry, I forget to tell him... Then I will text him back now, thanks for telling me" I replied.

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Hi, it's 56memories! Thank you for reading this far, I love you all so much especially those who actually wait for my updates :') I'm sorry to keep you all waiting. I hope you enjoyed this chapter!