My Unintended(Mpreg)(bxb)(Ongoing)

Chapter 2:I don't love you

Chapter 2: I Don't Love You                                      

" Hahhhhh..... " Ryker sighed on his bed.

I said that to him. I fucking said that to him. At first I felt grateful that I managed to say that to him but now I was really feeling guilty as hell.

He really should feel guilty for what he'd said to Allison. It was mean and too bold. He was too immersed in his own self- importance and selfishness that he didn't realize how much it hurt the boy's frail heart. They were in the same shoes. Both of them were forced into the marriage but Ryker was too much of a jerk to realized the fact that both of them were suffering, not him alone.

Seriously, for once, if he ever lowered his ego down, he would never had any problem to express his true feelings but since he used to have a rough appearance, he tended to be bold with his words, not too bold actually, more like he didn't mean to say anything mean, or maybe a little tiny bit too mean, but sometimes, what he wanted to say always came out in a different way when he said it.

" Uugghhh.... " he groaned.

It was not something he supposed to say on the first day marriage but he had to say it no matter what since there would be no suitable time for him to say it truthfully.

He looked so close to cry. Why did I have to say that to him. He was also forced into this marriage same as me. He was so fucking pale that I thought he was going to pass out on me.

He rolled around his bed, totally frustrated. He had to be honest, he was a bit jealous when his driver helped his husband carried his luggage since it was their first day of the wedding and his husband was already flirting with someone else, his own driver to be on top of that but the fact was, he knew it was not flirting, it was more like asking for help or anything since he was so selfish leaving his spouse outside, alone.  

I just said I didn't want to kow him. What the hell!!! Stupid Ryker!! You totally broke his heart!!

He thought, staring at the ceiling, blank. He did want to say what he had already said but he didn't meant for it to came out so cruel like that. If anyone heard what he had said, he would be the greatest jerk of all in the world. Well, he already had been the greatest. Not only nominated but won the award.He usually not that mean (he didn't realized it), but, just then........

.................

Wait. Why did I care about him anyway. We are just strangers anyway. I had nothing to do with him. He's just my baby's bearer. I don't even love him. I don't even need to love him. I love Tasha.

He continued staring at the ceiling in silence, still thinking of what he said that he already was so mean but as always, he couldn't help it since he was not too good with words. His clan already knew who he was and they sometimes couldn't bring their heart not to be hurt by Ryker's harsh words but they knew it was all said with a great consideration since Ryker usually not a kind of person who would say nice things over nothing.

As his mind spinning with the stupid words coming out of his mouth, he remembered Tasha who didn't came to his wedding that evening even though Sara had invited her, Ryker had told her not too actually but she did that too because she wanted too purposely irritate Tasha and Tasha, being an ego person too, she just ignored the offending invitation to go to her own boyfriend's wedding and stayed at home all day long, did nothing.

Ryker looked at his phone located on the mirror desk. He blinked twice thinking if he wanted to call Tasha or not. If he called her, she maybe would be angry for leaving her but if he didn't call her, he needed to set thing straight with her so that nothing would change between them. He liked Tasha and he didn't want to break it off with Tasha when they had been together for so long. A few seconds after, he made his choice to give his beloved girlfriend a call, hoping Tasha wouldn't be mad and answered his call.