Alta Sierra 1: Troilus Sandejas

Ikalimang Kabanata

Ikalimang Kabanata

I was lost for words with his confessions. What should my response be? Wala naman kasi dapat isagot dahil wala naman din siyang tinanong. He just confessed his feelings and told me that he'll pursue me. Ni hindi na nga ang-antay ng sagot kung payag nga ba ako na maligawan niya o hindi.

Gusto ko na di naman siya. I am just in denial about my feelings because I always thought he was sending me mixed signals. But now... I felt relieved. I also felt bad for the girls who woo around him, including Frida, but what can I do?

Hindi man ako handa na sa dinami-dami ng araw ay ngayon pa talaga siya aamin, hindi ko naman maikakaila na kakaibang saya ang nararamdaman ko. What happened in the barn may really be a blessing in disguise since that pushed him to confess. My mind is in a hay-wired maybe, but above all, I feel ecstatic and elated.

We are heading towards the farm, his hand is on my waist, subtlety guiding my footsteps. I suddenly feel so weak dahil pakiramdam ko ang daming nangyari. Hindi ako makatingin ng maayos sa kanya at halos nakatungo na ako. He is topless dahil suot ko pa rin ang damit niya and I am too distracted because of that. His warm hands wrapped around my waist gives me comfort and warm.

Nang malapit na kami sa maisan, he suddenly stopped at ganoon din ako. I gazed at him and his lips are protruded. He fixed my hair using his bare hands and I suddenly regretted taking a dip at the falls. Literal na mukha nga siguro akong basang sisiw ngayon.

My cheeks blushed profusely as his stares grew more intense. He's still combing my hair with his fingers.

"Uh.." I chuckled nervously... "Uuwi na ako."

Tumango si Rios bago tipid na ngumiti. "Ihahatid na kita."

Hindi na ako nakasagot dahil para na din akong lutang. Mabilis niya akong iginiya papunta sa sasakyan niya at nakaalalay pa rin siya sa bewang ko hanggang sa makapasok ako at umikot siya sa kabila para sumakay. He fixed my seatbelt like he always does.

"Thank you,"

"Uh-uh..." He turned on the engine and started driving. Ang kaliwa niyang kamay ay nakatukod sa bukas na bintana sa gawi niya habang ang isa naman ay nasa manibela.

"Were you pressured?"

Nilingon ko siya pero pansin ko ang paninitig niya sa damit niya na suot ko pa rin kaya napanguso ako. The shirt smells like him. His scent is minty and manly and I'm starting to get addicted to it. Mabilis na nag-init ang pisngi ko kaya kaagad naman siyang natawa ng marahan.

He shifted on his left hand to maneuver the steering wheel and I suddenly felt his right hand on my left arm. Pinadausdos niya iyon sa palapulsuhan ko hanggang sa maglapat ang aming mga daliri.

I gasped in disbelief.

I tried to pull my hands from his touch but he resisted. He just chuckled lowly at mas hinigpitan pa ang hawak sa akin.

"Rios, we're not a thing yet. Hindi tama na magkahawak na tayo..." I weakly said, silently praying that he would not let go of my hand though.

Hindi pa nga kami. He confessed his feelings and told me he'll pursue me but that's it for now. It is not right for us to be seen doing what couples do.

To my surprised, he just lowly chuckled. Napailing pa siya na tila may nakakatawa talaga sa sinabi ko.

"Hmm..yet..."

My mouth parted, at hindi pa pala talaga nakaligtas sa kanya 'yun!

"I mean, we're not a thing. We're not supposed to do what couples do." I said, a little bit embarrassed.