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"Theta" Kinda

We ran around in circles through each season of our life.

We started as the same thin line in the middle of the theta symbol

but drifted apart just leaving a tensioned strand in between.

Holding to that string for our fragile lives

cause we can't keep on circling around the world ,

we needed the attraction, that pull to be alive.

You went to be big

I went to be quiet

met each other once in a while 

circling down the same spiral

just with.....different people now.

Stole glances, shared classes

but feared acknowledgement.

Sanity comes with passivity 

and we were ecstatic at least you were... I was too but just in my head.

You went to parties

I went to dingy bookstores,

when you were dancing under lights in clubs

I was dancing under the stars in my balcony.

When you were rapping out obscenities 

I was floating out in my poetry.

When you had nobody to talk to and neither did I 

letters were unconsciously addressed to you 

and your songs were suddenly about me

but life went along, 

so we did too.

But never knew that that strand was inching to a breaking point.

We had to mend it with all our mights,

if we didn't we would only circle around in a perpetual enigma,

and how do you get through life without shortcuts as people.

So, i sat on the same rock, the rock where you said, " You are my rock, Liv. My steady place."

Such words uttered in such falsity

was enough to make my innocent-self believe that we had a chance,

a chance to stick together.

Now it was too late,

too late for you to come even if you came,

too late for that final string to be attached ,

too late for you and I to be a "WE".

So I sat there

feeling like I am on the peripheral vision of the universe,

too unimportant to be noticed,

 to be cared by anyone.....but mostly by you. 

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This poem had a really crazy inspiration. I was sick of practicing trigonometry so much that I wanted to vent it out on paper and the image of theta symbol was burning like a brain tattoo in my head and it is kinda based on that symbol. Hope you like it. Ciao!