Help Me Fix My Broken Wings

When He is Not There.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHH" She screamed loudly, she pulled all of the liquids being needled to her. Luckily her mother just came inside her room.

"Calm down baby, calm down. What's happening?" Her mother pushed the 'call the nurse' button, then a girl with white uniform entered got into the scene and was shock at the commotion. She called for two more nurses.

"What is happening?" Her mother asked the nurses. "Why is she like this? It's been months since the last attack.

"AHHHHHH. Don't touch me. Just kill me. What are you doing, Why are you doing this to me." she wailed, and kicked the glass center table which made it shatter into pieces. She picked a large shard of glass and wounded herself near the wrist, luckily one nurse was able to stop her slashing directly through the wrist. The wound was deep on her arm. She screamed again, this time from pain. She cried and fell down the floor. "I just wanna die. Just kill me please." She sobbed louder and louder. Her mother hugged her tightly and the nurse gave her a shot that will make her sleep. Her wound was cleaned, stitched, and mended properly and liquid sedative where needled to her again.

"A strong emotion must have triggered the attack" the doctor intelligently explained

"Strong emotion" The mother wondered while looking at Ji-hye's now sleeping figure

"We have lessened the sedatives content of the IV drips we are giving her, because something seemed to affect her, making her calm. Maybe something is making her happy for this past 3 months since the major attack. This week we have lowered it once again. Maybe this day something took away that certain something that made her happy, or someone didn't show up, or something disappointed her."

"I'll just talk to her, when she wakes up"

"Okay, just call me again if there are some unusual changes"

"Yes doc. Thank you."

Her mother opened her door slowly and noticed that Ji-hye is now wide awake and staring at the ceiling.

"How do you feel now baby?"

She just nodded her head.

"What is the relationship between you and Jiyong-ssi?"

"Big brother."

"Maybe you are feeling a little bit more"

"I dunno"

"Because you know what the doctor said?" She explained what the doctor said to her a while ago. "Maybe you just don't want to admit it but you're in love with Jiyong-ssi?"

"I dunno"

"And he was not able to visit you until a while ago that's why you were a little bit disappointed?"

"Maybe" She turned around and face her back towards her mother. "Don't talk to me, I want sleep"

"Okay baby. Goodnight just call for me if you need something." Her mother went to the living room of the hospital room.

An hour has passed when she called "Mom! I wanna go home." she said loudly. "It's been almost a year since we stayed here. Can't you say that to the doctor?" Her mom walked towards her and touched her forehead

"Alright. I'll try" She said a little bit worried. "Why, is the room too small?"

"No, I just miss Butler Kim, and also Nana Min"

"Alright I'll try asking the doctor" she patted her head "Now go to sleep"

"Okay thanks mom." Her mom went to the living room again.

"It's just that I don't want to see him again" She sighed. "I guess" then closed her eyes full of questions in her mind.