Her love & her regrets

Chapter#20 (unedited)

Aslam o alaikum guys

Hoorain pov:

"It's been a week , both Murataza and you have not talked or behaved normally...  I'm here to tell you everything, now enough of this silence" ami softly spoke, setting more fresh tears in my eyes. Nodding my head, holding onto my breath, I prepared myself for bitter confessions.

That day your father told me about his affair with that woman when he came from Islamabad after 5 months.... After 5 years of our marriage  I saw the true happiness in his eyes and it shattered me completely that even if gave my everything into this relationship but it was still incomplete and broken....

"He said he would marry her but would never divorce me because I was mother of his daughter and he never wanted you to live without a father or with step father.... He wanted to keep everything normal infront of you"

My mother  chuckled dryly, tears brimmed in her eyes, sitting beside her I kept my hand on her shoulder and released the breath, but to be honest I felt ashamed of not knowing how my mother sacrificed her whole life for me and lived with that man. I could've never done that, She compromised her entire self for me.

How was I oblivious to her problems and only thought about myself? Why was I so selfish like my father?

"He said, this house belongs to my daughter only and he would keep his second wife in another house which was bought by her... I agreed because having no other place to live and make your living better I had to do this... Murtaza again went to Islamabad to marry Sofia leaving us behind but after few days someone called me from hospital saying that he was admitted there.."

Tears streamed down her face, Ami sobbed silently. I was tore apart at her condition,  terribly wanted to make her feel better but I was at loss of words, nothing seemed reasonable to console her. 

"It was horrible day of my life Hoorain, more than the news of him getting married. Imagine the person whom you love dearly is laying on his death bed fighting for his life... I prayed alot for him because he was in terrible condition with injuries all over his body due to car accident and Sofia died, I was sad at her demise, your father loved her and I never wanted something bad for them. Never.  After that Murtaza was depressed for a long time, then gradually that depression turned into guilt and I still see guilt along with love in his every action...

"Did he apologize for his sins?" I whispered. 
"Yes numerous times although I forgave him long ago" She affirmed. My blood boiled at her statement but said nothing.

I knew it because the way my parent's used to treat eachother, it always felt like a perfect couple with no flaws.  My father always loved me and my mother, never did he raise his voice on us, like he was the most blessed man on this earth.  I was stupid to think so highly of him because it was not the love that he showered on us instead it was the compensation of his grave deeds.

"Didn't you hate him for a moment.  He was about to ruin our lives Ami and you forgave him so easily. What if Sofia was still alive? What if Baba had married her? Still you would've loved him? " I spilled the venom against my father.  Hatred was creeping in my veins.

"yes" firm yet weak voice spoke making us turn towards it abruptly.

"Murtaza" Ami frightened. I stared at the person standing before me.  My father, his hands were trembling, eyes bloodshot and weary,  his tears disappearing in his small grey beard. But he was only looking at my mother.

"You always loved me. I don't know what would've happened if I was married to Sofia neither  I want to think about it. She was my bitter truth which can't be forgotten easily. I'm again asking for your forgiveness please forgive me Nageen" He came forward, more tears flowed from their eyes as ami made him sit on the bed and sat as well.