Her love & her regrets

chapter #18

Aslam o alaikum  guys

Faraz's pov:

Her words were ringing in my ears, it was so hard to believe her yet I didn't miss the sinscerety in her voice.

What is happening to me?

It shouldn't have happened, she should've loved someone else.  I was not well deserving for the feelings she was having for me. 

I was here assuming wrong things about her, judging her and there she was having me in her heart.

What kind of person I was, only thinking about my problems that I never had concerned about her feelings.

I sighed as I was standing by the glass window of my study room. Yes me the groom on his wedding was in his study when his wife had openly expressed her feelings infront him..

Such a coward I am..

I should've been happy but there was something holding me back from embracing Hania and her heart which was beating for me only, but here I was struggling through my own emotions...

Maybe I was not ready for that big blow from her,  atleast it was a blow for me,  I know if there was someone else in my place he would have been feeling so lucky to have a wife like Hania... I was also somewhat contented but not fully happy....

I was standing by the large glass window, looking at the silent city when my gaze flickered to my wrist watch, it was 4:00 am then I realized my feet were aching due to standing from past 3 hours like this....

I sighed and headed towards my room because I didn't want dad to find something suspicious about our relationship, he was now living with us....

I twisted the knob slowly and peeked through the door, Hania's sleeping figure came in view so without making any noise I entered in the room and closed the door behind me. 

Hania was sleeping on the centre of bed so it was difficult for me to sleep on bed, I noticed she was no more wearing her wedding dress but she had a sky blue top and trousers, small smile invaded my lips when I read the words written on her top "YES I'M THE QUEEN", light pink veil was loosely tugged around her head from which one could easily abserve her chocolate brown hair....

She stirred in her sleep and I quickly laid down on the couch, I was feeling stupid to stare at her for that much long..

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Clicking of door disturbed me from my slumber, as I opened my eyes and looked around me, realized that I was sleeping on couch. I sat up and strechted my body to reduce some ache.

"Good morning hubby" I was startled somehow but Hania's greeting reached to my heart.  I mean her voice carried that happiness which was lacking from my life. 

"Good morning" I said as I looked at her and was left speechless for a moment when I saw her. She was wearing pistachio colored dress and her hair were left open as she was blow drying them.

She looked at me through mirror as I stood beside her and gestured her to give me the blow dryer. She was bit unsure but then she handed it to me, I smiled and started to blow dry her hair. 

"Done" I said and turned off  the dryer before putting it on the dressing table. 
"Wow I didn't know that you know this girly thing" She said and turned towards me. I just rubbed the nape of my neck and sat on the bed to which she chuckled.

"I don't know what took me to this but your hair are beautiful, you were doing it roughly and quickly so I thought to do it with patience" I said as I looked at her,  she stared at me with mischief.