Drown Me In The Flames (Kellic)

How Does That Make You Feel?

Monday, the day I've been dreading. It's been exactly two weeks since I've been to school, and I wasn't ready to return in the slightest.

The sheer thought of school made me shudder in disgust. But, I guess the thought of Vic being there with me helped ease my mind a bit.

I can't help but wonder at what rumors have been spread about my absence.

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I step out of my mom's car, but before I could close the door she spoke, "Kellin, text me or call me if you need anything, alright?" I nodded, "Alright, I love you sweetie."

I smiled at her, not even caring about the embarrassing nick name, "I love you too, mom."

I close the door and turn to the school. I let out a sigh as I hear the hum of the car drift away. I wasn't ready for this, not in the slightest.

I hesitantly enter the front gates, ignoring the looks being shot my way. Once I got to my locker, I pulled out my phone to text Vic.

K ~ At my locker. Where are you xc

V~ I'm so sorry. Mike's being an ass. Leaving now.

I panicked at the thought of being here alone. I looked up from phone to check and see if anyone's eyes are on my. I group of kids were on the other side of the hall glancing at me and whispering amongst each other.

I knew they were talking about me, so I continued down the hall, slipping my phone in my pocket. I stepped outside into the cold to avoid prying eyes. I let out a sigh, it coming out as a puff of white fog.

"There you are." Someone spoke from behind me, though it wasn't the voice I was hoping for.

I turned around, and James stood in front of me.

"What do you want?.." I just wanted him to leave.

"I was worried about you, I heard about what happened.."

My eyes went wide, and my breathing hitched. How the hell does he know? Does that mean that everyone knows?..

"What are you talking about?" I shot back defensively.

"You were in the hospital, and your dad was arrested."

I wanted to run away.. I wanted to run away and not have to face the world. But I couldn't do that, so I stood my ground.

"Why do you fucking care? I was never that important to you in the first place."

Guilt washed over his face, "Kellin I...I was an asshole, I know that.."

"Asshole is an understatement, don't you realize what you did?! You lied to me, and used me for your fucking amusement! At the time you were all that was keeping me here. I tried to kill myself over you!" I ended my statement with a sob. He's a heartless bastard.

He just stood there in shock, staring at me. It took him a moment to speak, "I-I'm sorry..."

I gritted my teeth in anger, "Piss off James, save your apologies for someone who actually gives a damn."

I went to walk off, but he stopped me, catching me by my forearm, "Wait.."

I glared back at him, his face full of remorse and regret. I almost felt bad for him, but then I remember why he looks like that in the first place, "I only broke up with you because I was scared... I didn't want people to hate me. I regret it.. I regret all the shit I said to you."

It was my turn to be shocked, yet it was quickly replaced by anger, "Scared of living up to who you are? You're a pansy, James. Now leave me alone."

I yanked my arm free from his grasp and stormed back inside, still crowded with people. My phone buzzed from my pocket. I pull it out reading the text, Vic was finally here.

This is gonna be one hell of a day.

I walked over to Vic's locker, where he was talking to his younger brother.

"You almost got suspended day because of them, don't you realise that mom and dad are close to sending you to boot camp?" Vic asked sternly.

"They wouldn't actually do it, Vic. It's not like I have a juvenile record or anything."

"You're not fucking far from it!" Vic shot back, quietly. I was tired of eavesdropping so I went up to them, tapping on Vic's shoulder. He turned and smiled at me, "Hey Kellin."

"Hey," I looked over Vic's shoulder st Mike, "Hey Mike."

He just nodded and walked off. "What's his problem?"

"He's being an asshole little brother, that's all." I nodded in understanding.

"So I'm gonna take a guess and say you day has already been as bad as mine."

He got a look of confusion and concern, "What happened?"

I sighed, "I ran into my ex...you know, James."

"What did he say?"

"That he's sorry, and that everyone knows what happened...why didn't you tell me?.."

He let out a sigh a took my hand, "If I would've told you, then you wouldn't have come. I need you here, it's hard by myself."

I looked down out our hands. I understood what he meant but, he could've at least told me. "It's fine, Vic. I just don't like the way people are staring at me.."

He gently ran his thumb over my knuckles, in an attempt to sooth me, "Just ignore them, and focus on having an okay day."

I smiled up at him a bit, "I'll try."

This day is going to be far from okay.

(A/N: aye, thought I'd give you guys a small update as my gift to you for Valentine's Day, the shittiest day of the year. Anyways I hoped you liked my shitty present, love you guys)
~Emily