Drown Me In The Flames (Kellic)

Fuck You, and Your New Love for Yourself.

What in the actual fuck is wrong with me? I really need to forget about him. He's just an asshole who ruined my life.

Lost? Let me enlighten you.

I'm currently standing in the school's long hallway, looking at my ex James. He was currently talking to his "friends", laughing. Oh did I mention the girl practically sewed to his body? No? Well now you know. He fucking used me, as a little game to see if he was gay. He used me like a toy, then threw me away when he saw I wasn't fucking good enough. The bad part is, is that I fell in love with the prick.

Yes, he led it on that long..

I tear my eyes away from him, turning back to my locker. I put in my combination and open it, a small piece of paper fluttering out. Curiously, I pick it up and read it, in red, girly ink it said one simple word.

"Faggot"

Yeah​, I should be used to it by now, but... it still hurts. Being called what I am, as an insult. It's sick.

I crumple up the piece of stationary. How original.

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In 3rd period I found my mind wandering back to the brown-eyed boy I "met" this morning.

I wonder what he's like, what kind of music he's into. Stop it Kellin, he's as straight, as Freddie Mercury is gay. Stoopid!

I groan and let my head hit the desk. Kill me. Why does every hot guy have to be straight, why can't they like dick? It's stupid.

And with that the bell rings. What the hell? Did I space out for that long?

I shrugged and gathered up my things. This day is going to be long as hell.

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I was right it was long as fuck. I'm glad my parents aren't home when I get there, I can actually get some peace.

I walked through my front door, instantly greeted by my cat Stella. Her name is fab, don't deny it. She lets out a soft 'meow' at me. I pick up the black cat and walk to the kitchen.

"Are you hungry baby?" I ask while scratching her head. I set her down, then get a can of food from the cupboard. After opening it and putting it in her bowl, I just sit there and pet her.

Animals are amazing. When you give them love, they'll love you back. They'll be there for you, but never ask questions. And most of all they don't judge you. Stella's the number one thing in my heart, I don't know what'd I do with out her. Crash and burn.

I sigh and stand up. I trudge my way up the stairs, to my room. I take off my bag, and dropped on my bed.

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I seriously don't understand myself sometimes. I can sit there for hours just contemplating on what my life is for, why I'm here. I can NEVER come up with a fucking answer. It's always the same conclusion. You're not supposed to be here. Everyone's better off without you.

That's how I got to where I am now. On my bathroom floor, crying. I'm fucking pathetic. Im alone, James didn't love me. He just used me. My mother and father don't love me. I'm just a disgrace for them to call me their son.

Then I hear a soft 'meow' come from the door. Stella, she loved me.

She patted her way over to me, and jumped in my lap. I just sat there, petting her, getting her raven fur wet with my tears, "I love you Stella. More than anything."

(A/N: Kellin, i wuv you. *pets Stella*)