Big Brother 22: All Stars 2

Episode 3: First POV

The first nomination ceremony just happened and it could not have gone any better for my game. Two people who I have not connected with, Keesha and Kevin, are on the block and I still have favor with the same HOH that I fucked with his nominees. I am sitting pretty right now because after my conversations with Cody, he and I formed what we call CoSyn alliance. It is our final 2 and I am so happy to have found that with someone like him because he has power with his side of the house and I have power with mine and no one knows exactly how close we are working together.

I see Kevin moping around and I feel bad for him because I know how badly he wants this, especially with how CBS has treated the biggest two douches from his season (Jessie and Jeff) while casting aside the others. After what Cody told me about his conversation with Kevin, I want to talk to Kevin to bond with him and make him feel comfortable with me. He has no one on his side right now and if Cody and I can snatch him up as a number, it would be perfect for us. Kevin is a fierce competitor and most of these houseguests are sleeping on him right now, which is good for his game.

I'm currently in the HOH room with Nicole and Cody when Keesha starts walking towards the HOH room. Nicole and I book it out of the room, with my excuse being that I have to get my shoes from my room downstairs, even though I am staying with Cody in the HOH room. Oh no, am I the Frankie and Cody is the Zach? Anyone with eyes can see that Cody is attractive, but my man is hotter than him and Cody is in love with his girl. I walk into the lounge and see Kaysar, Nicole A, and Da'Vonne in there and sit down to get to know Kaysar and Nicole better. We start talking and our current social climate comes up.

Kaysar: I feel like you (Day) came back a lot more relaxed.

Day: When I came in here, I prayed and I said "Lord, whatever your will is, if it's for me to win, cool. If it's not, cool.

Kaysar: Yeah, I love that. The first time I came on the show, we were in the middle of a war with Iraq and obviously I'm from there. This sort of depiction of people like me are uncivilized, dangerous. I did not want to be the poster child for all of that.

All: Yeah.

Kaysar: I was like "Maybe just one person just saw me it would be okay." And then, fast forward now, the world is crazy and people have lost their minds. I'm just not happy with where we are as a society. I don't think a lot of people are. Are we going to have the courage to stand up for what's right? I look at what's happening with protests and kneeling. People shout because you never listen in the first place. We gotta get to a point where you can hear their whispers.

Kaysar starts tearing up and I feel awful for him. I hate how sad our society has become and I am not a big fan of it. I start to tear up because I think of what I even have been ignorant to and I know I have a long way to go on my own journey.

Day: And that's important.

Nicole A: Incredibly important.

Syn: People need to hear this more often. I hate the fact that I have been part of the problem without realizing. I don't know what it's like to walk down the street and be scared of being attacked for the color of my skin. I don't know what it's like to be scared to drive in fear of being killed for something I didn't do. I know I have privilege and I am working every day to use it to help the unheard voices. I get emotional talking about this because it is sad that society doesn't treat everyone equally and it is normal to be ignorant, racist, homophobic, and sexist.

Day, do you know that after I first won my season, people said that they wished I would have died because a fairy like me should never be happy? I lost my job because my company would not support me and cared more about their reputation than their employees? I have always been different than most people. I've been too feminine, too weird, too gay for people to handle and now that I do not look it, I hate that it took changing how I look for people to stop doing that. I am sorry for not doing better and promise to do better every day of my life. Not just for social media success, but because it is about damn time the world changed for the better and was a place where your kids can be proud of living.