DISGUISE

Chapter : 27

It's been about 8 months since Eric and Autumn started dating.
Eric was still with his family enjoying his time before planning to make a huge come back again.
He told his mother that he'll tell Autumn about the truth one day but that day never came as both Autumn and Eric video called each other and talked about daily stuff until one day when Autumn finally asked him about his family.

From past relationship experience, Autumn didn't want to show any signs of being clingy or desperate to make things go fast. At least that's what the previous guy mistook her for. The guy who mistook her for her caring nature and blamed her for being possessive. 

But it's been quite a long time and Autumn has shown and expressed everything about her life precisely. Her family, friends, her career plans and whatnot. Edward, on the other hand, was still a stranger for Autumn for numerous reasons.
That's why this time she wished to see his family members and maybe talk to them as well.

Eric's POV:

Everything seems so nice when you look at something from a distance, the more closer you look, the more closer you get, the more dark side you get to see.
You see something sparkling from a distance, come close and it might be my teardrop that rolled down my cheeks when I was trying to gulp all the emotions and hide it.

Let me tell you about the bright side.
I didn't have much as a kid. No expensive clothes, barely some clothes to be honest.
I am that kid who never went to Dominos or pizza hut when I was very young with friends on their birthdays because I never had money.
My mom used to give me money from her secret savings to buy things so that I couldn't feel bad when I'm with my friends because they were from pretty wealthy families.
Me, on the other hand, was totally broke.

I used to save that money my mom used to give me, closing my eyes to every temptation of mine, to go and give auditions for local singing competitions and tv shows because that was the only thing that made me happy back then, because music always helped me to escape reality, and that was the last thing I actually wanted to do.

Doesn't matter how unlucky you think you are, God gives you one chance to prove yourself, you get your luck for once when you don't stop trying.
After trying uncountable times, I got lucky one day and rest is history.

I won't deny that I've everything today that I only dreamed of as a kid.
I am so lucky that I've such amazing fans.
I got so many trophies in my life so far that I don't even remember exactly how many I've got. I can actually buy the house I like without giving it a second thought.
I can give presents to my mom as many as I want to.

I wanted to become a singer, I'm now a singer. I wanted to have so many fans around me, I've them. I wanted to prove a few people that I can achieve my dreams even if they're thinking that I'm dreaming too big.

I can't be thankful enough for what I have achieved in my life so far.

But, if we look into it, into my life, I still don't have so many things. Things I used to have, I lost them.
I've lost my privacy, I lost my emotions, I lost my tears, I lost real happiness, I've lost my right to be a human and feel loved, to show love to a special one.

I can't even explain how irksome it gets when I wanna hang out with my friends without getting disturbed but I can't.
I want to walk in the rain without wearing a mask and talk to my fans as friends and know about their lives as they get to know about mine.

Don't get me wrong, not every fan is like that, I love my fans, they are my well-wishers but a few of them, I can't even call them fans.
They cross their limits every time. I was hanging out with my cousin one day, being a girl... that day became a nightmare for her when the internet was flooding with hate comments for her without even knowing that who she was.

Do you call those people a fan who give me death threats? Do you call those people fans who want my future wife to die if they're not "her"?
I get scared when someone suddenly clicks a picture of me when I'm not expecting it.

I can't get angry, because I'm a celebrity I'll lose my reputation, I can't cry, people might label me as a weak or even an attention seeker.
I can't look bad, have a teenage, now twenties skin problems because they'll call me ugly. I can't do this, I can't do that I just can't.

And above all when I fell in love, not once but twice I got to know that they never loved me?
They said it ain't working out and being asked why? They had no answer?
The worst part was, they got over it like it was nothing.

And when I found you, Autumn, trust me I thought you were just another sweet fan that's why lying about my identity at first wasn't a big deal.
But now, I am scared...scared of how people will react if I'll tell them about our relationship.
I am scared that you might get threats.
I am scared that even if I might get lucky enough to have you in my life, to make you stay, you'll eventually leave me.

Why you wouldn't tho? You don't deserve any of this. No hate, no threats, no chains around you to make you stop from hanging out with friends, just like you're able to do now.

Go for shopping whenever you want, go and eat ice cream whenever you want.
Being honest, I love this life.
I love when you hold my hands in public, I love it when I tease you and you blush, I love how we go out whenever we want as Edward and Autumn and walk around, fingers intertwined, people looking at us and smiling because they think that we're madly in love. And yes I'm...I'm madly in love with you Autumn.

I can't see you giving up all of this for me.
I can't see you struggling and regretting your decision to love me, to chose me. I can't see you getting sad Autumn.

Why I am thinking of all this? As if she'll stay after knowing the truth.*Eric muttered while looking at her pictures in his phone*

She will*Eric's mom said while putting her hands on his shoulders*

You're gonna meet her next week, won't you?*she asked*

Eric looked at her and said
"Yes, shou...should I?*he stammered*

Yes, my son, it's time to tell her the truth and I'll be there for you.
Our whole family is gonna be there at your comeback show, tell her, and if things won't go right, I'll be right there to help you*she said and smiled*

What do you think mom, will she stay?*he asked in a low voice*

Well, I haven't met her yet but the way you explain things about her, I reckon she will*She said and hugged Eric*

Thank you so much for reading. #SpreadLove #RespectEveryone #NeverGiveUp <3 :). Love you all.