suicide

The Padded Room

A/N : ReloadxXx thx

she pointed it so I'm just gonna write a chapter about what happened in the eight years she was in the padded room.

My therapist came in.

i stayed quiet.

" Can you tell me why you started to bang your head on the piano?" said lilli

I just kept looking at my feet. I wasn't listening to her at all.

"How about we play a game" she said

i looked up, showing her that i'll play.

" I'm Lilli" she said

" I'm jamila but i go by jamie" I said but very quietly

"Jamie, very pretty. I'm thirty years old" said lilli

" I'm ten" i said

She breathed in " That's very young for you to be in here. I'm going to be with you so you don't get lonely and i'll be your best friend. You can tell me anything."

I nodded and smiled.

" So now can you tell me why started banging your head" she asked

I hesitated. " When i was seven. Me and my neighbor, junior, would go play piano. We always had fun. One day he touched me he said he slipped so i let it go. Then the next day he kept touching me. ( Remember she is a little kid so she doesn't know what he did was wrong) He would touch me everywhere but mostly my private parts. I thought it was okay since he told me this is our secret handshake. I didn't know it was bad until ..... something happened."

"What happened?" said lilli

" Something i don't want to share" i said

" When he'd touch me i didn't like the feeling so i told my mom. She told his dad. He's dad told him to apologize to me. He told me to meet him at the piano. I have no idea why i was alone with him but he didn't apologize. Instead he grabbed my hair and made me hit my head on the piano, he did it multiple times." i said

Lilli didn't say anything, she just took notes.

"When my mom saw me she was furious. She put on a sweater and shoes but not before she grabbed the belt. She ran out the house and went to the neighbors house which is right across the street. My mom knocked but when the door opened she pushed his dad out of the way. My older brother was standing right next to me and all we saw was our mom just calmed down walking towards us with a smile. Then she said tell your dad i might go to jail. I saw junior run to his dad crying, i laughed. After my mom made dinner the cops came and took her. She mumbled 'Nunca pongas tus manos en mi hija' which means never lay your hands on my child."

Lilli and i talked about how were gonna try to get me to play piano. That was just the first lesson.

After four years, i finally trusted her. So i decided to tell her about me getting raped. I liked lilli she was teaching me whenever she can so i don't have to repeat anything.

Lilli came in with some cake like she always does and says the the same thing " It's our anniversary! We officially met this day". Lilli became my best friend. We eat cake then we have our sessions and then lastly we have lessons."

I get two slices of cake and lilli eats the rest. She so skinny it looks like she can't eat one slice.

Our session is now in session.

"So i want to tell you that something, i never want to discuss." I said

she looked surprised but then said " Continue "

Before i was admitted here, i was raped. i was going to the arcade because it was near my brother's college. He was a freshman so his class ended earlier. On my walk to the arcade i stopped at a liquor store but a weird guy was watching me, ect. (Everything that happened is in the second chapter)."

We talked about how i was feeling about bringing up the memory. She also wants me to talk about until i have no problem with it and she had a soultion to make me comfortable with everything.

It took me a year and a half to okay with everything because i refused to talk about it and the therapist i had before didn't help.

I was fifteen now and i felt happy until i had an out burst. I was supposed to get out that year but i'm glad i didn't.

Lilli kept trying to make Josh, emerald, and will come out. (Jamie's split personalities. They never came out though. She wanted to meet josh the most.

Another year had pasted and i only have six more months. I didn't want to leave lilli but i had to. I was better now.