Take Her Down (BTS FF)

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"I haven't seen you in a few days, I've missed you" he pouted as we ate our lunch in the cafe next to the hotel 
"I missed you too" I pouted "now that everything is coming together I'm going to be running on a hectic schedule, but I'll definitely make time for you whenever I can" I smiled making him smile 
It's not a total lie. 
I'm in love with this man. 
I know what he's doing..
I'm just not ready to let go yet. 
I want to enjoy my time with him like I have been. 
I've never felt this way about anyone before. 

We spent the day together walking around, laughing, talking, and holding hands. Every time we saw a dog we had to stop and pet it which made me laugh because he looked so much like a little kid with his smile and the little giggles that left his mouth every time. We decided to go out for dinner and as we entered the restaurant his phone rang 
Dickhead🤬
He silenced the call and smiled at me as we sat down at our table. 
I now have an idea as to who dickhead is.. 
And the fact that he didn't take the call while he was with me started to bother me. I've been around him plenty of times when he's answered his phone for his friends. Hell, I've even talked to two of them. Kook, and chim, they made me laugh my ass off as they talked my ear off about Tae and told me how much Tae talks to them about me and how he's head over heels in love with me. 
It has to be real right? 
But..this dick head person.. I can only assume, is Namjoon. 
My stomach started to ache at the thought. 
"Are you okay my love?" He asked pulling me from my thoughts
"I'm okay" I smiled 
"You don't look okay, what's wrong baby?" 
"My stomach just hurts is all.. I'm just gonna order a small salad or something" 
"Want me to come to your room with you and rub your belly?" He smiled
The look of love, adoration, concern, and sincerity in his eyes made me swoon all over again. 
"Sure" I smiled "I'd like that" 
Dinner went smoothly after that. Back to our happy and in love selves as he talked my ear off about the art museum he wanted to take me to. We took a bunch of selfies on our walk home as we giggled and made stupid faces, he took one of us kissing with the sunset behind us, it looked like it belonged in an art museum it's self. Once he sent me the photos I instantly set that one as my homescreen and smiled as I stared at it, he did the same
"Now we match" he smiled wide as he held his phone next to mine making me giggle. 
We walked into my suite and Steph was asleep on the couch with the paperwork sprawled across the coffee table. 
Just like I knew it would be. 
I covered her with a blanket and we walked into my room, after we showered and changed into our pajamas we laid down in my bed together. I put the tv on, and as we laid there he slid down towards my stomach and lifted my shirt, he rubbed his warm hand around my belly and placed little kisses on the skin, making me feel warm all over and smile as I ran my fingers through his fluffy brown locks. 
"Daisy?"
"Hmm?"
"Do you ever think about our future? Like..getting married and having babies? Do you even want kids?"
"I do" I nodded and gave a sad smile..I was thankful he couldn't see my face. 
He kissed my belly again "I can imagine you pregnant" he chuckled and kissed the skin again "I can't wait" 
I chuckled at him and continued to get wrapped up in my thoughts. 
Why is he talking like this if it's all a lie? 
And even if he is in love with me, he has to know this will end. This will come crashing down on both of us eventually. 
I let a few tears fall out, I was quick to wipe them away. 
"They'll be just as beautiful as their mother. I can't wait for you to meet my parents..can I meet yours too?"
"Of course, we'll figure it all out eventually" 
"I'm gonna sound crazy" he frowned and continued to rub my stomach "but if I could make it all happen tomorrow I would. I love you so much, and all I think about is our future together" he started to sound sad. I realized then,
He is in love with me. 
And he knows it's all going to collapse. 
We laid in silence as he continued to rub my stomach and pepper kisses along my skin around my belly button. 
I fell asleep. 

I laid there with my face and my hand on her stomach thinking about a future we share together, one where I'm not the bad guy. One where she forgives me, and she meets me at the altar. One where we have our children running around the house making messes and driving us crazy, with their mothers crazy hair and my boxy smile..one filled with love and happiness. 
I knew she had fallen asleep, and I continued to lay there trapped in my thoughts, rubbing and kissing her skin as I fought back tears. 
I crept out of the room and over to the coffee table in the living room, I pulled out my phone and took pictures of everything before sending them all over to Namjoon and deleting all of the evidence from my phone. I made sure to stay quiet so Steph didn't wake up, the last thing I needed was this to blow up in my face so soon. 
I'm not ready for the day she leaves me. 
I walked back to the room, put my phone on the end table and curled back up with the love of my life. This time I spooned her and held her close to my chest, I kissed the top of her head repeatedly as I whispered my apologies to her and repeated over and over again how much I love her and hoped that she would forgive me once this blew up in our faces. 
I prayed to every god out there that I wouldn't lose the love of my life.
That she would understand why I did what I did. 
Namjoon not only has the power to fire me, but to easily ruin my life as well. The fact that we're family means nothing, he will ruin me if I go against him. 
It goes so much deeper than just losing my job. Everyone thinks he's this super nice person, but I know from first hand experience the blood he has on his hands. I fear him in a way I never knew I could fear a person. Especially family. 
I'm not only worried about him ruining me..but what about Daisy? If anything were to happen to her, I would never forgive myself. 

I only hope she'll understand.