Someone To Love

Barenaked

Beam POV

When the next Saturday came, even with a heavy heart, I returned to the gay bar. And as I expected, Forth was performing that night. With eyes closed, I paid for his bar fine. But instead of going to a hotel like I did last time, I just waited for him to outside the bar.

"Why am I not surprised?" He said coldly and entered my car on the passenger seat. He didn't say anything when I brought him to my condo unit. He even went inside my room first. When entered, he was already removing his undies.

"Forth, please, don't be like this.", I said to him a trembling voice. My tears already flowing down my cheeks. It pains me to see him think lowly of himself just like that.

"You paid for whore, didn't you?! What do you want us to do then? Do a prayer meeting?!", he growled at me

I broke down right at that moment. I knew it was my fault why he was treating me that way. I was wrong in paying for his bar fine but that was the only sure way I knew that I can talk to him and he won't avoid me.

"If you're just going to cry in front of me all night, I'll just tell the manager to refund your payment.", his tone icy as north pole.

"Damn it, Forth! I'm your friend! Talk to me please!"

"Wow! Really?! You have the balls to tell me that you're my friend after you treated me like a whore?! Well, I can't very well complain can I? I am truly a whore, right?!", his voice piercing my very soul. I wanted to curse myself over and over with what I did.

"You brought home a whore, Beam. That's all. Nothing else.", he added.

"If that's what you want..." I said dejected and started stripping my clothes. He just watched me while I toss my undies to the bed. I knew it was not right but I had an idea.

Once completely naked, I walked towards him and pushed him down the bed. The lights were on so I easily noticed the confusion in his eyes. But, he didn't do anything to stop me.

I quickly went to the kitchen to get the rope I had in store there. It's fortunate that I don't throw out things that I have in my unit routinely. It was the rope when I had my bed delivered. The whole thing was too big to be brought up as is so they just assembled the pieces here inside.

"W-what's t-that? W-what are y-you going to do with t-that?", he said with a hint of fear in his voice. I tried to will myself to smile dubiously.

"You're a whore, right? And because I paid for you time and body, you need to follow all of my whims.", I said before I approached him.

I contemplated numerous times to not push through with my diabolical plan especially when I saw the terror in his eyes. That fear was not because of me. It's a fear born from his previous experience with a rope, that's what was clear from what I have observed.

But when I started tying his hands, he didn't even struggle. I saw how his eyes surrended to his predicament which crushed my heart. No struggle still when I tied the other ends of the ropes to the sides of the headboard to make sure that he won't get away. All the time I was securing him on the bed, he was just watching me.

When I was sure that I had him secured, I grabbed his undies and wore them to him. I rolled my blanket over him before pulling my own undies on. I grabbed a comforter from the cabinet and spread it to the floor.

"Beam!", he called me but I ignored him. Even when he started squirming, I just turned my back on him. He was cursing me non-stop but I just let him.

"Fuck it, Beam! Let me go!!! Untie me!" He screamed but they all fell to deaf ears. His a whore alright but I'm not as bad as he thinks I am.

When I laid down, I blacked out immediately. I stirred awake past midnight when I heard him calling my name.