Outer Banks Imagines

Miscarriage||JJ Maybank

TW: miscarriage.
A/N: I've never had a miscarriage so all of this info is coming from tv shows/ movies. Also Asher refers to the baby as his baby cause my cousin did that and I think it's precious.

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The day you and JJ found out you were pregnant with Asher was the greatest day of your lives. The pouges found out a few weeks later and were just as excited to become aunts and uncles to the unborn Maybank baby. So a few years later when you found out you were once again pregnant you and JJ were just as excited. You went on Etsy and got Asher a shirt that said big brother on it. When the shirt arrived about a week later you called all the pouges over for a family cookout. You dressed Asher in his new shirt and got dressed yourself. John B and Sarah were the first to arrive.
"Uncle JB, Aunt Sarah"
Asher yelled running up to his aunt and uncle John B bent down to catch him and swing him around in the air before putting Asher on his hip.
"What's up bubba?"
JB asked
"Look Mommy gots me a new shirt."
He said pointing to the new shirt he was very proud of.
"Woah dude that's super co- wait really?"
He said looking at you and JJ with a smile spreading across his face as you and JJ nod
"What does it say?"
Sarah ask grabbing Asher from John B as he goes to hug you and JJ.
"OH MY GOD!"
Sarah says setting Asher down so she can run and hug you and JJ. Asher pouts at this and goes up to JJ pulling and his pants leg to get his attention. JJ releases John B from their hug.
"What up baby boy?"
He bends down so he can look Asher in his eyes. Asher holds his arms out to JJ. JJ chuckles and picks up his pouting son and kisses his head. Soon after another knock can be heard from the door. You fake gasp.
"Ash you better go see who's at the door."
You tell him. He starts wiggling til JJ puts him down and runs to the glass door to see Pope and Kie.
"Uncle Pope, Aunt Kie! Daddy, Daddy, it's Uncle Pope and Aunt Kie open the door, hurry Daddy, hurry."
"Alright bud I'm coming calm down."
He says like he's exasperated by it but the smile tugging at his lips gives him away.
He immediately holds his arms up for Kie or Pope to grab him but they both had seen his shirt and ran over to you to give you a hug. Ash pouted even more at this and at that moment decided he did not want his baby as much as he previously thought. His aunts and uncles didn't love him anymore and soon his mommy and daddy wouldn't love him anymore either. Pouting he went up to the hugging adults.
"Uncle Pope"
He whined. Pope looked down to see his nephew pouting up at him.
"Hey Bubba, Sorry I didn't hug you I had to see your mama real quick."
That didn't stop the pout on Asher's little face. Pope picked him up and put him on his hip and kissed his head.
"That wasn't very polite."
Asher said to Pope and Kie. You and JJ had been teaching him about being polite, apparently it was working.
"Your right buddy I'm very sorry."
Pope said squeezing him a little tighter so the boy would forgive him and like his father Asher was a sucker for his Uncle Pope and forgave him almost immediately. Then the young boy looked at Kie expecting the same thing from her which he received immediately.
The boys went outside to cook the burger and hot dogs. And all the girls could seem to talk about was the baby Asher was not happy.
"I'm going outside with my daddy."
Asher said getting down from his stool where he was 'helping'
"Hey buddy."
JJ said to him as he walked carefully down the stairs to the grill. John B picked him up and sat him on his lap.
"So do you want another boy or a girl."
Pope asked
"As long as it's healthy I don't care."
JJ said smiling
"I never thought JJ would be the first one of us to end up married with kids"
John B said shaking his head. Asher rolled his eyes he was tired of everyone paying attention to this dumb baby and not him. He poked John B's face he looked at Asher smiling.
"And this one will be the best big brother that there ever was, won't you bubba?"
He said looking at his nephew. Asher looked at the ground he didn't want to be a big brother he wanted to stay the baby.
"I want to go to my mommy."
Asher said so John B sat him on the ground. And Asher ran off to the kitchen.
"Mommy can we send my baby back."
He asks as he enters the kitchen
"Asher Maybank why would you ask such a thing?"
You look at him waiting for an answer.
"We'll be outside."
Kie says as her and Sarah walk out to the boys. You pick Asher up and set him on the counter. Asher was looking at anything but you, the wall the ceiling his shoes.
"Look at me baby."
You say calmly. Finally Asher's eyes meet yours.
"Why don't you want your baby anymore?"
"Cause nobody will love me anymore. When Jenny's daddies had another baby she said they forgot all about her and only loved the baby." He says in one breath
"Ash I'm sure that's not true and even if it is that will not happen with us."
You grab his little hands in yours as his lip trembles
"Yes it will mommy. Uncle Pope didn't hug me and Uncle JB put me down. They don't love me and you and daddy won't love me either."
"Baby your uncles got a little excited is all they didn't mean to hurt your feelings they love you so much. More than you will ever know I promise."
"What about you and Aunt Kie and Aunt Sarah all you do is talk about my baby."
He pouts harder
"I'm sorry you feel like we've left you out my love we didn't mean to and won't do it again I promise."
You say holding out your pinkie for him he wraps his around your and you both kiss you thumbs to 'lock it' you grab him to give him a hug. When you feel something trickling down your leg and cramping in your stomach.  You quickly set Asher down grabbing on to the counter top.
"Mommy you bleed."
Asher says pointing at your leg.
"Ash go get Daddy and your uncles and stay with your aunts."
You say trying to keep your voice even to not scare Asher even more.
"But mommy-"
"Asher do as your told."
You say sternly to him. Asher takes off outside as you fall to the ground
"This can't be happening"
You say as tears stream down your face.
Asher runs out side and the other five adults look at him.
"Daddy, Mommy needs you and Uncle Pope and Uncle JB hurry she's hurt Daddy she Bleed."
He says worry evident on the 4 year olds voice.
"The baby"
The boys say looking at each other before running inside to see you sitting on the floor crying JJ runs over and picks you up while pope grabs a blanket and John B grabs the keys they all run to the car
"I love the baby"
You hear Asher cry
"I know sweetie I know so do we."
You hear Sarah comforting your child.
A few hours later Sarah and Kie had Asher calmed down and asleep laying across the two of them.
"John B"
Sarah said answering the phone hopefully
"Oh God"
Tears welled up in her eyes
"Okay love you and give JJ and Y/N our love."
She hung up the phone
"They lost the baby."
Kie starts crying to they only knew about the baby a few hours but they were already in love with the unborn child. They look down at the little boy who started stirring on their laps as if he knew something was wrong.
"Aunt Sarah you sad."
He says as he looks at his aunts tear stained face.
"Yes baby I am."
He looked at his Aunt Kie who was also crying
"What wrong?"
Sarah looked at Kie
"Tell him Y/N and JJ will understand."
"Bubba I'm so sorry but your baby went to heaven."
She said putting in to words that she only hoped he would understand.
"But I never got to see him."
He said confused
"I know my love that's how it happens sometimes. I'm very sorry you didn't get to meet your baby."
She said sadly
"I was mean to my baby."
Asher said still not quite understanding
"You didn't mean it love we all say things we don't mean sometimes."
Kie said to him
"So I'm not getting a baby?"
He asked
"No my sweet boy."
Sarah said kissing his head.
A few days later you were sent home, Asher was down for his nap. You were so grateful to have your little family to take care of him when you and JJ couldn't. JJ carries you upstairs to your bedroom and cuddled in the bed with you when he laid you down.
"J I hate myself."
You say to him.
"Baby the doctor said there was nothing we could have done differently the baby just wasn't strong enough."
"But why did it have to be our baby?"
He looked at you sadly with tears in his eyes
"I don't know love I wish I did."
He kissed your forehead gently when you hear a tiny knock on your door.
"Ash let's leave Mommy alone right now okay."
You hear John B say but you missed your son.
"Tell JB to let him in."
You tell JJ. He looks at you.
"Your supposed to be resting love."
"Please J, I need him."
JJ nods and goes to the living room
"Daddy!"
Ash says running into JJ's legs
"Hey bubba you want to see mama?"
Ash shakes his head.
"Why not bub?"
JJ says surprised by his son
"Mama will not love me."
"Why do say that ash?"
"I didn't want my baby and Aunt Sarah said he went to heaven."
JJ nodes
"Bub I promise it had nothing to do with you that the baby went to heaven it just wasn't strong enough to stay. Do you understand son?"
Ash shakes his head
"Mommy is not mad, neither is Daddy we both love you even if you said something that was ugly and that you didn't mean cause you were upset."
Asher looks at his dad then cuddles into his chest. They sit like that for a few minutes.
"Daddy?"
"Yes son?"
"Can we go see my mommy?"
"I think that would make her very happy."
He picks Asher up and carries him into your and JJ's room.
"Hi angel."
"Hi mommy"
He says into JJ's neck still nervous you'd be mad at him. JJ sets him on the bed beside you and then climbs in behind him.
"I'm sorry about my baby mommy."
"You have nothing to be sorry for lovey you didn't hurt your baby I promise."
You say to your son as you him and JJ doze off for a nap.