mine // j.g

Chapter 12

I walked back into the hospital room at sat next to Johnson leaning my head on his shoulder. I started crying silently.

"What wrong Mol?"

"My baby is gone and he hates me and I -"

"Jack doesn't hate you. He never will"

"Then why did he leave"

"He can't take being with you but not BEING with you. He loves you too much"

I sighed and laid down crying a little. Johnson got up, walking over to Sam, whispering something to Sam before leaving. Sam sat down next to me and we sat there for a few minutes in silence.

"I remember him" I finally said.

"That's great Molly!" Sammy said obviously happy I have my memory back. "We have to tell J-"

"No, it's easier for him" I said stopping him "he can leave now"

"Molly you can't just hurt yourself like that. It's not healthy"

"Sam it would hurt more to say goodbye" I gave him a small smile and stood up.

"Are you ever gonna tell him?" He asked.

I nodded "when he can't come back" I started biting my nails.

"But wh-"

"Sammy can you please just..." I took a deep breath and walked over to the bed laying down. "Can you please just lie down with me?"

He nodded and got on the empty side next to me wrapping his arms around my waist. I clamped my eyes shut, forcing myself to go to sleep.

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Everything was dark.

"Hello?" I yelled.

"Hello?" I yelled louder.

"Molly?" I heard his familiar voice.

"Jack? Jack is that you?" I said getting excited as I saw him come into view.

I ran up to him and jumped thinking he'd catch me but I just face planted. As I looked back up, Jack was disappearing.

"Jack?" I said getting up.

"No no no Jack please don't go. Please don't leave me" I pleaded desperately trying to make him stay.

"Don't let go of something you love, because sometimes you might not get it back" he whispered disappearing completely.

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"Molly! Molly wake up!" I felt someone shake my shoulders.

I jolted awake screaming.

"Shhhh it was just a dream Mol" Sam engulfed me in a hug.

"I don't want him to go Sam" I bawled.

"Molly you let the things you love go and I know he loves you too. He'll be back, don't worry" he rubbed my back.

The nurse came in, and said I could leave. I packed my bag and got into my dirty clothes from earlier. As I was walking out of the hospital everything hit me.

Jacks gone. He's gone for awhile and when he comes back he probably won't want me. Nothing is stopping him from moving on. He's leaving Omaha. He's leaving his friends. He's leaving me.

It was dark and rainy outside and it made me tired. I felt myself drifting off to sleep as Sam pulled out of the parking lot.

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I woke up in my bed and looked over at the clock. 3:00 AM. I yawned and got out walking downstairs.

"Hi honey" my mom smiled.

"Hey mom what are you doing up?" I asked walking over to the island where she was standing.

"I just finished work so I just thought I'd get some water and head to bed. What about you is everything okay?" my mom asked seeing my appearance.

"Uh J-Jack had to u-um go on tour" I swallowed a lump in my throat.

"Aww Molly honey I'm so sorry"

"It's fine I'm fine" I grabbed a glass of water and walked back upstairs saying goodnight to my mom. As I laid back down in my bed I couldn't fall asleep. I stared at the ceiling. The familiar burning sensation reached my throat, crawling to my temples and finding its way to my eyes. I felt like I was dying as the water came to my eyes falling down my face and hitting the clean bed.

He's just a boy. He's just another guy who'll hurt you. He's just another player. There are more like him. He isn't the only guy. But he's not just s another guy, he isn't s player, he won't hurt me, there's no one like him. He's mine.

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I'm so sorry it's short I just felt like you needed something.