Bangtan AO3 Collection (some ABOs)

I already know but tell me again (Series 5/5) pt.1

I already know but tell me again - Rose_gold715

Summary:

He knows it's perfectly safe to tell Jungkook, but Jimin is stubborn, and his omega side is terrified.
It's a built-in belief – infertile omegas are useless and disposable.

Link:

https://archiveofourown.org/works/25276833

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Negative.

JImin feels the nausea in his stomach but not for the reason he wants it to be. He picks up the other test and stares at the single line, lump forming in his throat.

He's not pregnant.

His hands fall limply to his sides and disappointment courses through his body.

"It's okay, it's okay," he mumbles as he hastily throws them in the bin, grabbing some tissues and chucking them in after to conceal the tests, feeling ashamed that he doesn't want Jungkook to know. The first few occasions it had been alright – Jimin had shrugged his shoulders and said 'next time' but it had been months off the pill and he's starting to feel scared. What if I'm infertile? What if there's something wrong with one of us? We did a check-up and everything was okay but maybe something changed –

"Jimin?"

Jimin jumps at Jungkook's voice from the other room. He had probably just come back from work. Washing his hands, Jimin takes a few deep breaths before heading to the main room, heart beating and anxious as if Jungkook would be able to tell the second he saw him. His omega wolf, on the other hand, was wishing for his mate's touch and comfort, feeling extremely vulnerable.

"Hey, we got an invite to some benefit," Jungkook says absentmindedly as he sifts through the mail, loosening his tie and unbuttoning his cuffs. "Oh, and my mom was wondering if you wanted to go to a dance recital with her."

Jimin smiles weakly and glances down, eyes running across his flat stomach. His chest tightens.

"Taehyung called and said he's coming over later today to pick up his stuff he forgot yesterday and..." Jungkook trails off as he notices Jimin's silence. "Baby, is something the matter?"

Jimin blinks up at him and tries to play it off with a breathy chuckle. "Nothing – I just have a lot on my mind."

Jungkook looks unconvinced. "Do you want to talk about it?"

Jimin shakes his head. "It'll be fine, really." He walks to Jungkook and moves into his embrace, eyes closing at his warmth and feelings eased by his alpha's presence. Jungkook's crisp, clean scent relaxes his tense muscles and fills the hollowness in his chest, wanting to curl up against his side and whine for attention – maybe during heat he might, never would Jimin do that when he was coherent. Nevertheless, Jimin smiles to comfort his worried alpha. "I feel better already."

"Okay," Jungkook rubs his back and tilts Jimin's chin up to kiss him. He gave a playful smile to try lift Jimin's mood. "I bet you were just missing me."

"Yeah, that definitely wasn't it," Jimin rolls his eyes and Jungkook laughs.

He moves away to look through the rest of the mail and Jimin opens his laptop on the counter, remembering he needed to reply to an email from a dance company. He knows he should just open about his concerns. Jungkook has never pressured him about having a child – they'd only agreed at the beginning of the year that it was a stable time for them to begin their own family. Jimin had accomplished so much with his dancing and was willing to settle down for a little while, looking to start his own dancing school with Hoseok in the future, whilst Jungkook worked almost side by side with his father in managing the company and was very comfortable with his role. Of course, one day he would take over as CEO but he still had much to learn and his father wasn't ready to retire just yet.