Letters to my Ex

Your Surrounding

Everybody in your circle did not respect me as a woman, your wife or a human being for that matter, want to know why?

It's because of the way you treated me in front of everybody. More significantly the awful things you said to my face and behind my back. Hell yes you were your people's university of life, you taught them how to behave towards me and they did a very good good job while they were at it.

I could see that to your people I was just a zero, a girl from just somewhere, it was deeply engraved in their eyes. Their actions spoke on their behalf, they didn't have to utter a single word.

I would find myself embroiled in the midst of a general conversation in a public space in the midst of your favorite people or should say people that you valued the most? At the end I'd be left with hurtful words exactly like sharp objects piercing through every part of my body and you couldn't careless.
Not even one day were you concerned about my feelings or asked for forgiveness.

Funny enough you protected your girlfriend's feelings. You made sure you stood by them even after I found out you were cheating on me with them.

You would send me away by telling me to go visit my sister so that you can have a perfect chance to be with them...

You would come home find me sleeping and woke me up by screaming at the top of your voice swearing at me, telling me how useless I am to you. How I'm such a bitch little did I know that you did it because you couldn't go spend time with your girlfriends because their main partners were around or on their way to see them.

Neighbors would look at me differently the following day hell yes they heard everything you said word for word, probably asking themselves why didn't I leave little did they know that life forced me to stay... See?

You were a side man who had a wife he abused to please side chicks...
Why didn't you let me go?

A question i cannot answer myself however I think I was your emotional punching bag.

I became the talk of town in and around where we stayed. Everybody knew that you did not want me, you were In a relationship with me because I forced you well that's what you told them.

At first I thought what people said were unfounded rumors however it started making sense and proven to be truthful when you dated different girls from different places and they all started telling people  things about me in the same way word for word, I mean they obviously didn't know each other, how would they then know so much about me if you hadn't told them?