Letters to my Ex

Doubt

You instilled uncertainty in me in terms of everything that concerned me and my future...

From my beauty to me being just a big dreamer...you created a lane for me to stick in whereby when I looked at myself I only saw a  poor girl from a poor background who wouldn't make it in life...how can one build a future without confidence? the minute you told me I was ugly and made sure it gets through my head and lived... I was finished,the last nail to the coffin was when You told me how smart your ex girlfriend was... On the contrary you just made it a point that I believed that I was not smart and definitely not destined for bigger things in this lifetime.

You killed my dreams before I could even start working hard towards them...

Every time I shared my ideas with you, you would advise me otherwise and say people wouldn't like them, that right there was a dead end for me... You would say it will never work...
And

I listened to you because I lived in your shadow.

Your reaction to when I mentioned where I'd like to see myself in future shouted I was mad...you did not take everything I said seriously, to you I was a joke...

You made sure that I stayed where you put me and that I don't break out of that negative shell.

My feelings were all over the place, I couldn't think straight. You got into my head and controlled my thoughts.

I knew there was something special about me but I couldn't figure out what it was because I lived a life with no meaning...

I did not know whether I was going or coming... All my emotions were wrapped around your little finger and I couldn't break free...

It was like you broke into my head and performed a surgery in my brain and totally altered my way of thinking..

You finished my life before it even started by just breaking me piece by piece, you didn't have to use a gun, every time you opened your mouth it was like you spat fire that burnt me to death. Your mouth was hell that burnt me alive because of what came out of  it.

Your choice of life left me breathless...