P.S, I hate you. (l.h fanfic)

Intro.

Hi, my name is Marina Turner. I'm 16 (turning 17, mind you) and God I hate everything about my life.

My family, but mostly myself.
my mom died of cancer when I was only 5, leaving my dad in custody of me.
My dad turned to alcohol not long after.
I'm guessing a week or so? I have no idea. He would get drunk, come home, and beat the living hell out of me.
He told me it was my fault for my mom's death, and that I had no place in this world.
I blamed myself for my moms death for solid 5 or 6 years, because that's what I grew up to know.
When I turned 13, I was diagnosed with depression, anorexia, and severe anxiety. I stayed in my room all day, all night.
I was homeschooled because right after my mom died I refused to go to school and would turn off my alarm. So my dad just enrolled me 4 weeks before summer started.
Hell, if my child was like that I would enroll her into homeschooling too.
I'm an only child so I have no one to turn to in times of desperate need. I turn to self harm. It's like an escape I guess?