Consequences (Brad Simpson)

Chapter 7

Connor

I woke up before all the other boys because I wanted to check on Chloe when I opened the curtain a little bit there she was messing around with her camera "I know you're there" she called out I walked in "how did you sleep?" I asked her "I got a few hours nothing more" she replied this has been going on since Cody attacked her and I feel bad because I can't help her.

We talked for a while until we arrived in Liverpool and at the hotel so the bus can go to the venue and get everything set up for sound check, we got out the bus and checked into the hotel I was sharing with Tris this time "is Chloe okay?" he asked as we walked into the room "yeah she's just not sleeping great" I told him "mate I don't think she slept again last night" he told me "what makes you think that?" I asked him "I heard her I got up to go to the toilet and I heard her playing the guitar again" he answered I sighed I'll need to talk to her again

"she's been like this since the whole attack thing at the flat and I feel helpless" I admitted "look all we can do is make sure she knows she's loved and can talk to any of us, I mean she's like family" Tris said "thanks bro" I replied and went to go find my sister.

Chloe

I was at the hotel bar bit getting a coffee "why did you lie?" I heard Connor ask me "because it's not your problem" I replied turning to face him "it is" he said "I'm responsible for you" he added "no you're not I'm 22 I can look after myself" I said "here you go" the barman said "thank you" I replied turning to pick up my coffee, he looked me in the eyes "where are they?" he asked "where are what?" I asked ignoring his question "drink your coffee" he told me so I did since the cups aren't that big I paid and he dragged me off to my room.

I let him in and he went raking through my bags till he found what he was looking for Adderall prescription bottle "how long?" he asked "a few days" I mutter "and you didn't think to tell me?" He asked "again it's not your problem!" I yelled there was a knock on my door I opened it to see the boys manager "what's all the arguing for?" he asked "it's nothing Connor was just leaving" I said turning round he looked pissed, he walked out my room and put the bottle in my hands, I sighed and closed my door I guess with how stressful my job was I was beginning to lose focus and being tired all the time.

I had this issue in college shall we say there was this pill going around that would help keep you awake  and I got a bit hooked Connor found out and he was pissed and he could always tell when I had taken them so yeah I take my Adderall before going to bed so I'm up all night because of my nightmares and sleep during the day or don't sleep at all. I use to have ADHD as a kid but it got less and less as I got older so now I only take my adderall when i need it and get it refilled every now and again. 

I know it's not healthy and I will probably put myself in the hospital but I know when to stop. I repacked all my stuff and went to watch the boys perform sound check and to take pictures this time since I missed yesterday, when I got in the car I didn't sit next to Connor and the tension between us was horrible "you guys okay?" James asked

"yeah fine just a little fight" I told them they brushed it off thank god and we went to the venue. I got Connor alone "can we talk?" I asked "I'm busy" he said "come on Con" I said he just ignored me "will you look at me" I said making him turn around "I can't because all I see is my little drugged up sister" he snapped "you broke your sobriety" he added I looked at the ground not wanting to cry but it hurt he just walked away "you okay?" I heard Brad ask "yeah I'm fine" I said walking away wiping the tears that fell.

Connor didn't talk to me the rest of the day I guess he just needed time to cool off, the show again was great and we got food on they way to the next location I found Con through the back where I sleep "I'm still not happy with you and the fact you didn't tell me but Brad said you were very upset and kept to yourself during sound check" he said turning to face me "look I'm sorry I didn't tell you and I promise it's not like last time I'm tired of not being able to go to sleep because of the nightmares I have so I just don't sleep" I explain