To love hate ( Severus Snape and Morgana Pierce)

Yule Ball Part 1

- pain . All I felt was pain as the whip was brought down on me . As he continues hurting me I try with all my might to forget the pain , the suffering , the horrors . I imagine myself at the top of the highest mountain looking down at the wonders of nature, the beautiful sun set in the background, the hills upon hills running in the distance. I heard birds chirping all around me , singing happy songs . Pain . Little animals like foxes and beavers running around dancing in the tall grass . Hurt ... I catch my breath , imagining I've just been swimming in the clear waters of the near by waterfall - I'm out of breathe , breathing heavily I run . In my mind I'm running away , as the clouds above me turn from a beautiful blue to a stormy gray almost black , I look around as the animals are all scurrying for shelter, fear in their eyes . The earth was falling away behind me after my every step , crashing , thunder and terror was heard . Suddenly I see him . Forming with swirls of dry dust from the volcanic ground a black satin tornado , almost silk like - with a flick of his wrist the dust disappears faster than it came , there he is , the grim himself , darkness is his name , the all time version of the ever-scary boogie man , the king of fear - Voldemort himself standing in front of me -

I wake up screaming , tears running down my cheeks . I was sick and tired of these dreams , I've had enough of the visions of my memories or these nightmares .. But the reason why I was crying was because I was scared . As I looked into the Dark Lords eyes I was terrified , the only thing on my mind was that I hope my death was quick , I knew I was going to die , I just knew It .

As I regain my thoughts , I did the only rational thing I could think of

Albus

I ran out of bed , untangling myself from the sheets - not caring at my attire or how I looked , I was scared and I just needed comfort. Running through the passage ways , I could've sworn I heard laughing behind me because of my panic , wand in hand - I wasn't sure it would come in handy , considering I couldn't even cast a defense spell .

Making my way to Dumbledore's office , knocking on the door abruptly and entering without waiting for an answer

I burst in , tears streaming down my face without me knowing , but I soon realized I've once again interrupted a meeting . Severus was standing next to Albus showing him something on the desk , I was too dizzy to take in the details but it seemed rather important considering its was late night or early morning . Immediately feeling embarrassed , cheeks feeling on fire , my eyes drift to the potions masters' when suddenly I felt week and fell to the floor . This whole ideal happened without a single word spoken, yet the silence explained much more than words ever could

Albus rushing to my side , I heard shouts but they were faded in the distance, like I was enclosed in a bubble and muffled sounds from outside . As I drift out of consciousness, I could've sworn Albus was next to me as I whispered something to him , well we could only hope it was a whisper and that it made sense considering I wasn't in a proper state to actually think of what I was doing.

Before darkness engulfed me , memories flashed in front of my eyes , certain ones though , older ones - I kept on seeing someone there , someone that wasn't supposed to nor would have made sense having been there , my mind was playing tricks on me ...

I drift off , letting darkness capture me peacefully

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Whiteness . All I could see was white , my vision still blurry I mistook my surroundings as heaven , expecting to see the pearly gates to my right . But I knew that I hadn't died yet considering the sun was shining through my eyes waking me up as if saying hay its a new day rise and shine I groan as last nights events came back to me , it must've been quite a sight seeing a distraught woman faint on your office floor - smiling I thought of Albus' and how he would've reacted - he was probably in a panic state - distraught , confused - I could see him now , owling all the doctors and healers at St Mungo's desperately calling them for any explanation as to what was wrong with me .